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Adam’s Top 10 Films of 2023

July 11, 2024 by Adam Membrey

I don’t usually publish my Top 10 lists until a month (or two, or three) into the new year. A lot of this is just logistics. It’s hard to catch all these great movies that come out in the last quarter of the year. It has to be spread out. Something has to give. And while I often find my favorites earlier in the year (this list will prove just that!) I can’t help but exercise patience in giving some late-year award contenders a chance.

When you combine that with the time-bending nature of being a full-time teacher and parent of two young children, you get a situation like this: a 2023 list over six months into 2024. But in many ways, this is how I like it. I love writing about movies that stick with me. My first attempt at a movie blog was called The Gumball Factory because that’s what the best art did for me: gave me something to chew over, on my own and with others. And if you really want to overextend the metaphor: something that I’d often catch my sole on whenever I thought my brain had discarded it.

So here it is: the stickiest films of 2023. 

A FOND FAREWELL: Guardians of the Galaxy Volume 3

Maybe it’s by accident. Maybe it’s just following a roster of GOTG comic book villains and this is the biggest remaining one. But I think it’s fitting for James Gunn to use the High Evolutionary, a villain so committed to his society-developing goals that he’ll wipe out entire, well-functioning towns just for another chance at something a smidge more successful. Is that not what reboot-laden Hollywood is today? Every good, popular thing must be remade. Not to add meaning or to explore new colors in the narrative – that’s bonus frosting for cinematic foodies. No, everything must be remade to squeeze a little more juice out of the aging lemon. 

Gunn knows this as well as anyone. He’s now leading the DC film and television division at Warner Brothers, which currently has a prospective schedule full of rebooting characters. He’s currently making a rebooted Superman movie with the (and this could change!) title of…Superman. Hollywood is the High Evolutionary and it will always be. So what’s James Gunn gonna do with his final film with his beloved Guardians of the Galaxy, the franchise that helped boost Marvel’s financial and creative floor? He’s going to rage against the machine with all his unique touches.

I think it’s great he’s centered the entire movie’s narrative around Rocket Raccoon, a character that literally has a CGI mouth modeled after one of Gunn’s dogs, Von Spears. And that he begins the film with Raccoon half-singing to an acoustic version of Radiohead’s “Creep”, a reminder that this is a franchise of misfits. And that the ending involves not only saving a bunch of human orphans, but a whole Space Noah’s Ark of badly mistreated animals. I love that Gunn goes just as hard with the soundtrack, moving us into the 90’s with some unexpected choices. The fact that the action finale is scored to Beastie Boys’ “No Sleep Till Brooklyn” is oddly perfect. This rag-tag team has embodied a bit of that snotty, yet earnest Beastie Boys attitude. 

There are so many ways that Gunn could have sleepwalked his way through his last Marvel movie before jumping over to his extra-full-time gig at DC. But you can see him making the most of it. The giant physical set of Knowhere. The extra gross texture to the Orgoscope or the impressive gore when High Evolutionary’s face is removed. The way he takes Gamora’s death in the Avengers films – something that probably knee-capped the trilogy story he likely wanted to tell – and makes it a message of how people may not be who we want them to be, but they’re good enough as they are. Gunn has clearly hit upon a formula that works just as well for him as it does for audiences. The Suicide Squad could be considered the R-Rated DC version of Guardians of the Galaxy. And his next movie will be about one of the biggest, yet most well-meaning misfits in all of culture: Superman.

I will remember how deeply Gunn cares about all the trilogy actors he’s worked with. You can see it in the way he sends every character off on missions that fit not just who they are but who they can be. He wants these people to do well – fictional or not. Volume 3 is a big film that doesn’t quite fire on all cyclinders – the Marvel machine grinds the gears a little too often – but the goofball and heartfelt streaks Gunn and his team paint it with make it a worthwhile ride. Gunn will continue to make big blockbuster films with lovable actors, great music, and an earnest yet offbeat approach. In many ways, he’s just like the characters at the end of Volume 3 – pushing ahead out of his comfort zone and seeing what magic he can find in the process.

A KNOCKOUT JOKE: The Killer

The funniest thing about this movie is also the realest: it’s a feature-length setup for a zeitgeist punchline. Director David Fincher and writer Andrew Kevin Walker are in total lockstep with this, an adaptation of the French graphic novel series by Alexis Nolent and Luc Jacamon. It starts off funny enough, with Michael Fassbender’s narration almost comically meticulous, as if he’ll fall asleep while wanking off to the sound of his own carefully-calibrated voice. But when a mission goes awry, he must fix it. And anyone who’s ever had to be on the phone for hours – days, even – to dispute a bill will understand Fassbender’s pain as it plays out within the contract killer genre. He goes from one place to another, each finish line revealed to be the beginning of another race against time, money, and his own life. When it all ends high up in the Brooklyn apartment of a wealthy man, a big smile crept over my face. “What I’m trying to say here, and I can’t express this strongly enough,” the panicked billionaire says, “I have no issue with you. Zero. As far as I’m concerned, we’re good.” There are a comical amount of layers between him and the problem Fassbender was supposed to take care of so that the pain does not disturb the rich guy’s takeout meals. He is a man insulated from pain. And the insulation is the world the rest of us live in, the one where our bill disputes suck hours of our lives and when a mistake on the job can mean the difference between life and a callous death.

COME FOR THE LAUGHS, STAY FOR THE HEART: No Hard Feelings

If you’ve seen any interview Jennifer Lawrence has done over the years, you know she’s got a sense of humor rarely showcased on the big screen. Anytime someone wins an Oscar – as Lawrence did in 2013 – it’s hard to get off the Oscar-baiting Prestige Film Train. The trailer showed some good gags – the throat punch, the pickup line about weiners – but they successfully obscured a rather touching story about an adrift woman desperate to call something her own.

I still think about a scene midway through, when Maddie (Lawrence) and Percy (an incredible find in Andrew Barth Feldman) go to a fancy dinner at a fancy resturaunt to make up for the prom night neither of them went to. When a nearby upright piano opens up, Maddie dares Percy to show off the playing ability he previously disclosed. It all feels light and fun – an odd couple making the most of an unexpected summer connection – until Percy goes up to the piano and, to Maddie’s complete surprise, plays Hall And Oates’ “Maneater”. As he glides into the intro and the opening verses, the camera slowly eases towards Maddie, who is frozen by the fact the song applies to her way more than Percy even realizes. I still get goosebumps by the acting Lawrence does in this scene. The way she shows so many conflicting ideas and emotions on the verge of completely overwhelming her, all without moving. It’s an incredible scene to anchor the movie with, one that elevates it to something deeper than I ever expected.

THE QUIET PART OUT LOUD: A Thousand and One

I first checked this movie out after Film Crit Hulk’s effusive praise, and I’m so glad I did. Writer-director A.V. Rockwell’s thoroughly impressive debut avoids so many cliches by immersing itself in the specifics and grooving alongside Teyana Taylor’s incredible performance as Inez. But it’s in the film’s final third in which the story elevates. It takes all the cards it has carefully laid down and begins to reveal them, one by heartbreaking one. It’s here we meet the oldest version of Inez’s son, Terry (Josiah Cross). What makes Cross’s performance so unforgettable is the way he communicates so much with a character we know uses few words. Terry is often withdrawn. He needs more time to process things. But when the film’s twist kicks in, when the truth that’s been hid both from Terry and from us, the audience, is revealed, Cross devastates. Most onscreen teens we see are hyperverbal, sharing their many thoughts and conflicted feelings. Perhaps it’s because some writers don’t spend enough time around teenagers. But it also may be because teenagers can be notoriously frustrating people to converse with. They hold so much in – sometimes unconsciously, their brains still making sense of the world – and what they do share can sound completely unaware of the ecosystem around them. But Cross does it all with his eyes, with his body language, with his movement. It’s a masterful performance seeped in a honesty and vulnerability we don’t often get to see. Cross, like Rockwell’s film, avoids cliche with every choice. He meets Taylor inch for inch, giving their final scenes its bittersweet, yet hopeful sting.

A LAYER CAKE TO SAVOR: May December

What’s stuck with me most about May December is how much we gain from the layering of its narrative. We think we know this story because it closely remembers the true story of the teacher Mary Kay Letourneau and the 12-year-old male student she initiated a deeply inappropriate relationship with. But director Todd Haynes makes great use of the angles the script by Samy Burch and Alex Mechanik offer. By having a try-hard actress in Elizabeth (Natalie Portman) come into the town where Gracie (Julianne Moore) and Joe (Charles Melton) reside, intending to shadow Gracie for a role in an upcoming biopic, we see the mythmaking that takes place. Elizabeth’s desperation to tell their story feels just as predatory as the media must have been when Gracie and Joe were first reported on. It’s rekindling a cycle of trauma and shame that begs us to ask: who does this story benefit and why are we so desperate to tell it again? And when will we value the cost of these stories more than eyeballs they bring?

At one point in the film, Haynes uses a gorgeous shot of Moore and Portman sitting before a multi-sided mirror, their reflections physically showing us just how many sides to the story there really can be. The additional mirrors added to the scene (per a suggestion from the cinematographer, Christopher Blauvelt) makes it hard for us to figure out at first which angle is real and where characters in the scene are actually positioned. We never quite know which one is the truest angle. And it doesn’t matter. We will believe what we choose to believe. And we will find ways to distort the story over and over again. 

What also sticks with me, all these months later, is Melton’s slow burn of a performance, and the way we realize he’s missed an entire childhood. He’s there for his first child’s high school graduation and it feels much like graduating college when you realize the goal you all shared no longer exists. Suddenly they – and you – are free, and what comes after is a terrifying unknown. He melts in silent tears. There is no going back. No parent to lean on and guide him through the next phases. The only way forward is stepping into deep uncertainty. 

THE ASHES OF GUILT: Oppenheimer

Oppenheimer (2023) | film freedonia

This cast is stacked like a Russian Doll’s cupboard. Great actor upon great actor upon great actor, all neatly placed within roles that stretch down hallways and across boardrooms. It’s so great to see so many favorites – Josh Hartnett! David Krumholtz! David Dastmalchian! Florence Pugh! But having so many welcome sights doesn’t just put a face to a name – it makes the film skate by just fast enough to make you almost forget how harrowing it will all soon be.

The opening minutes of Nolan’s Oppenheimer show a level of editing the rest of the film doesn’t try to match. Full of suggestion and color, of visions and terrors, it’s as close to a big-budget art film as Nolan may ever attempt. And then it settles into rhythm. And, to be fair, there is a particular delight in that rhythm of watching great actor after great actor step up to the plate and knock their line or two clear out of the park. Everyone wants to work with Nolan. It feels as if the entire film is imbued with goodwill, even as it shows the outline of some of the darkest horrors of history. The scenes flow by and you can’t help but be swept up in it. 

What sticks with me the most is the way Nolan ends his film, bringing Oppenheimer (Cillian Murphy, deserving of all the awards and a sandwich or five) back to the pond with Einstein (an excellent Tom Conti) as he delivers this final line: “When they’ve punished you enough, they’ll serve you salmon and potato salad,” he says, as Nolan shows us flashes of the awards banquets soon to come, “give you a medal, and pat you on the back, telling you all is forgiven.” Then the look on Einstein’s face hardens. “Just remember, it won’t be for you…it will be for them.” 

In just one line, beside a pond, we see how an everlasting history of complicity is built. People support the worst of urges in their own self-interest. They find someone else to blame. And then they circle back around, as their nightmares become too much, and try to reward their way out the guilt tunnel. They don’t want the burden. They don’t want to have to explain themselves to Saint Peter or whichever gatekeeper they believe in. They want to burnish regret and shame into a forged medal to be passed on to someone else. Let the demons find those ashes, they think. Let me admit my wrongs while maintaining my status above it all. 

I think about the line everywhere I go. The many random, all-too-late recognitions for things that were once swept under the rug and out of sight. If you look hard enough, you can see the white-hot light at the center of it all, the passion hidden or stolen. It’s almost enough, just like the bombs borne from Oppenheimer’s work, to take your breath away. 

YORGOS GOES YOLO: Poor Things

Very few filmmakers seem to be having as much fun as Yorgos Lanthimos while he chases dark ideas and quirky dreams. Not all of Poor Things quite comes together – but that’s only because it’s bursting at the seams with fantastical ideas and risks. Lanthimos allows his film to explode with color and contrastive visuals just as the loud, clashing world is being absorbed by a deeply confused yet ferociously curious Bella Baxter (Emma Stone). You can see every actor having the time of their life participating in this phantasmagoric fantasy, this technicolor acid trip of a film.

I do wish Lanthimos and his team gave us more of what they suggest in the final shots: an imagination from Bella Baxter that doesn’t seem so deeply drenched in the male gaze. But the surrounding film, and Stone’s performance at the center of it, shows just how cruel and colorful a world we bring our children into and how, at some point, we all have to let go.

A SHELL WORTHY OF HOME: TMNT: Mutant Mayhem

It does not take much to sell me on a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles film. Even after the Platinum Dunes produced versions that came out in 2014 and 2016 with their nightmare fuel CGI designs. Even after all the cartoons made and all the toys botched (they’ll never make them as good as they used to, I keep telling myself). But a script from Seth Rogen and Evan Goldberg? With Jeff Rowe (Mitchells vs the Machines) co-writing and co-directing? With a new, invigorating art style? With a Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross score? What more could a Turtlehead even ask for? 

It says a lot about this film that the hype never felt overblown. From the very get-go, when we’re in the middle of a mission and the Reznor + Ross score rocks out, you know you’re in good hands. The good vibes are sustained throughout. 

What stuck the most with me is how easy it is to forget all these years later that these are Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. For whatever reason – perhaps the suits they wore in their original live-action films or the fact they just seemed so kick-ass – I always read them as aimless twenty-somethings. Here, they embody their names in many ways. They talk over each other. They joke. They seek ill-advised thrills. And, more than anything, they just want to fit in. 

I found it an inspired choice this time around that for as gorgeous as the animation choices can be, the humans are by far the ugliest thing in the entire film. They look often look grotesque and judgmental. They look more alien than even a ninja turtle. You spend the whole film with this hilarious group of turtle teens, understanding their desire to fit in but also wanting to remind them that humans are absolutely no cooler. Perhaps that’s where the wisdom kicks in. We always think the older ones are wiser until we are them, and realize we’re still teenagers in our own hardened, shelled bodies, still desperate to fit in somewhere. 

All this and it must be said how fun this movie is. When I strived to find a movie for my 4th graders to watch before a Break, the vast majority feverishly voted for this one. It makes them feel a little cooler. A little bit on the edge. A little more like the teenager they may one day dream themselves to be. 

THE SOUND OF COMPLICITY: The Zone of Interest

Review: The Zone of Interest - Chicago Reader

It’s not often you see a movie scored with the sounds of human suffering, but Jonathan Glazer has always been one to set audiences off-balance. The genius of this film lies in how it plays like a rather standard family story. They’re all living their lives in a beautiful home, a happy life only temporarily upset by the father’s job transfer. They swim. They try on clothes. They argue about how they should not have to move. It’s all fairly standard familial stuff except for that part about the whole thing being scored to the sounds of humans being deprived of dignity and, eventually, their lives.

There’s a baby that cries almost all the way through the movie. You could think the baby is colic. But you will also be unable to ignore the gunshots, the screams, the many, many audible and visual reminders that next door to this family is a Holocaust crematorium. You’ll be unable to ignore the fancy coat the wife tries on, knowing it belongs to someone else. Or that the human remains that interrupt a family swim are not some unnatural phenomenon, but rather an everyday circumstance they’ve stumbled upon. Entire lives and family trees are being removed, one immoral decision at a time, and all you’re seeing in the foreground is a family who’s so used to it that they’ve tuned it out. It’s white noise. It’s everyday life.

Glazer and his team have created a masterful exploration of what it means to be complicit, to allow great suffering to slip into the casual noise of our lives. I still think about the final scenes when the father stumbles down the stairs, as if he’s going to vomit, to finally purge some awful thing that he’s been holding deep within him. Maybe he’s finally grown a moral center after seeing the plans other crematorium managers have. His whole body is keeled over. It’s a position we’ve never seen him in. And yet: nothing comes out. His body is used to it by now. The question becomes: is ours? 

A PLAYFUL PLAYTHING: Barbie

Barbie' Review: Margot Robbie And Ryan Gosling Smash The Patriarchy In  Greta Gerwig's Charming Comedy

There was no reason to believe that a film adaptation of one of the most popular toys of all time would be good. But I trusted in Greta Gerwig and Noah Baumbauch, even if I had no idea the tone they’d aim for. But the first trailer showed just how delightful it could be. And so the excitement built and built and built and it finally came out last summer in a cultural explosion worth being a part of. You can practically hear Gerwig giggling behind the screen in every scene, so thoroughly entertained by all her wonderfully-game actors, delivering lines from a script full of ideas and heart. After the more subtle, intimate delights of her first two movies in Lady Bird and Little Women, it’s so exciting to see Gerwig play in such a massive pink sandbox and for so much of  her voice and energy to carry over through the studio system.

Ryan Gosling’s Ken may have been the performance (rightfully) nominated for an Oscar, but it’s Margot Robbie’s Barbie that holds it all together at the center. She masterfully plays all the shades of Barbie’s feelings – her confidence, her self-doubt, her heartbreak when things fall apart – and gives the film the expansive emotional palate to play with. There are entire unforgettable sequences and lines I’ll always be excited to return to. Let Barbie be a reminder that you can be earnest in your pursuits (just look at how many classic film inspirations Gerwig name-drops in this video) while still embracing the absolute fun of it all. 

A LIZARD KING WORTH FEARING: Godzilla Minus One

Behind the Scenes of 'Godzilla Minus One'

Hollywood has really tried their damndest to make Godzilla a thing. They rebranded him in 2014 with Gareth Edwards’ earnest take and its Michael Dougherty-led 2019 follow up, King of the Monsters. Then they tried again teaming him with King Kong – himself rebranded only 15 years after Peter Jackson’s remake – in 2021’s Godzilla vs Kong and 2024’s Godzilla x Kong: The New Empire. At this point, it feels like a classic Hollywood misunderstanding: mistaking iconography for character. Just because something looks cool doesn’t mean it will be. Don’t get me wrong: the current American Godzilla is pretty cool in its own way, especially when he blows an atomic breath blast to the middle of the Earth because he doesn’t want Kong talking shit about him. But what Japan understands is that Godzilla works best as a metaphor. He does not have the most mobile face. You can only work the eyes so much before they look goofy. You can make him too lean and look like a knockoff Jurassic Park T-Rex. He exists best as scaly, giant canvas to work upon.

What this Godzilla Minus One does so beautifully is show the percussive, crescendoing impact of trauma. Our lead character is already dealing with survivors’ guilt after the film’s incendiary opening scene. Then he feels another layer of guilt as he returns to a devastated hometown. And then – and only then – does Godzilla resurface. Instead of pumping your fists like we do in America, you’re thinking “Oh, fuck that guy.” You know these people don’t deserve any more pain. But a bill must be paid, and the chances of Godzilla paying are about as realistic as him having an online savings account.  By the end, when the line, “Is your war now over?” is uttered, I got goosebumps and tears. It reminded me of the end of the original Jurassic Park, when the final moments aren’t about the badass dinosaurs but rather the end of a terrifying journey where these people feel fortunate to survive. There is no telling what will come next. Surely, chaos will reign. But somewhere in that moment, the formed bond becomes unmistakable and worth protecting. The war may be over, but worthy battles will soon begin.

10. You Hurt My Feelings

Nicole Holofcener is one of our greatest screenwriters alive. Few are so deft at observing and depicting the emotional microtranscations we make in our everyday lives. How we’re all tightly-wound, high-functioning people until someone unlocks us with the right key and we explode out into the wide, unpredictable open. Here, an entire movie centers around Beth (Julia Louis-Dreyfus) overhearing some rather honest writing feedback from her husband, Don (Tobias Menzies). The person she believes no secrets are held between. The person who’s supposed to be her person. And once she hears the true opinion he’s been withholding, it feels like all bets are off. All truths are now some from of well-dressed lies. The center, for now, cannot hold. 

Holofcener builds out her intimate thematic framework with characters who are all avoiding conversations they need to have. It’s the kind of thing that builds over years of routine, when we know the rhythms of our partners and children so well that we can sleepwalk through every hiccup. But it all adds up and, at some point, the bill must be paid.

I love the way Holofcener shows Don half-assing his way through his job as a therapist. After all, if all your conversations are happening behind closed doors, who’s there to really debate how good you are? He’s protected in a way that his wife, a writer, is not. Even when a disappointed couple threatens to sue him for therapy they claim doesn’t work, he’s unbothered. But after he lays out everything in the open with Beth, after they finally talk about the little white lies they’ve told each other, the little things they do to avoid the harder conversations they should probably consider having, he feels a shift. He comes back to the office a new person. He connects with his patients better. Holofcener walks us through the pain of truth, the ways we lie even as we’re hurt by being lied to, and how scrubbing off that scar tissue allows us to move a little better.

9. Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves

Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves - Movie Review - The Austin  Chronicle

There’s a scene where our rag-tag group of heroes, desperate for answers, stumble upon a graveyard. There, they can ask each awoken deadman up to 5 questions before they return to their eternal slumber. They blunder it initially, asking questions to each other, only for it to be overhead by a deadman and counted against them. But then they start to figure it out, and with each given answer, we see glimpses of a battle that could easily have been slid within the high-budget fantasies of the past. That is, until they meet their on-field demise and their story reaches a literal dead end. If I were to sum up this film, this unexpected wonder of a $150 million dollar adaptation to a well-known fantasy board game, I’d point to this scene. The characters and actors play it straight, which only makes it funnier. And it ends on a perfect button of a deadman still awake, waiting for someone to ask a 5th and final question so he can finally get back underground. It’s ridiculous and hilarious a terrific use of Dungeons & Dragons lore that can delight fans and newbies alike.

Fantasy has rarely ever felt this fun. The creatures are inspired. The scenery gorgeous. And the film truly follows the spirit of a Dungeons and Dragons game in which every bit of problem-solving feels like an inspired bit of improv, of stumbling upon answers you didn’t realize existed. There are so many little nice touches set up that definitely pay off later, including a final choice at the end that – no joke – had me all emotional! You know that writer-directors John Francis Daley and Jonathan Goldenstein are probably a bit shocked they got people to put so much money into this. But you also know it’s gotta be a great script to get so many game, fun actors involved. Hugh Grant, especially, seems to delight in his villainous turn. Chris Pine deftly handles the silly and the serious while being a generous scene partner to actors who totally understand what movie they’re in. I could go on. In a fairer world, this would have been a massive box-office hit and a sequel would be currently filming.

8. American Fiction

American Fiction | TIME

The most persistent thing about this movie – the part I can’t shake, over 6 months later – is the way it shows the point it’s trying to make. It feels like we’re softly pinballing between two parallel lives, the story Monk (a pitch-perfect Jeffrey Wright) believes the world wants of him and the true life he’s not yet ready to write about. And he can’t seem to win in either one. He’s always playing catch-up while being reminded he’s not quite in control. In the literary and film world, he’s at the mercy of an algorithm developed within a system that constantly undermines him. In his own life, he’s stumbling his way through one family decision after another.

I still get goosebumps when I think about a small scene when Monk is driving back from the hospital and his family’s longtime nanny, Lorraine (Myra Lucretia Taylor), asks him a simple question: will he walk her down the aisle? It’s a marriage you’re already rooting for because it’s two people late in life, grabbing on to whatever joy they can tie around their fingers. But it also reminds you how much of the family is missing and how, despite it all, Monk has made enough of an impression that he’s the one she chooses. You can see how much it touches Monk, how much he needs it. In a world desperate to place marginalized people on pedestals that only isolate, it hits especially hard when someone unexpectedly draws us in closer. 

Jefferson has built quite the eclectic, impressive writing career over the years with his work on The Good Place and Watchmen. He always felt, to me, like the chameleon who could do it all. Here, he gets to show a little bite while showing just how much further he could push, if given the opportunity. I hope he gets it. I hope this is the beginning of a burgeoning new career direction and he goes all the way.

7. Past Lives

Past Lives — Film of the Week

Too often these days I find myself failing to respond to people in a timely manner because I want to make space for them. A Marco Polo here, a text there. I leave them unanswered, waiting for the right moment that never quite comes. They are like books I’m holding, stacked high and just over my head, that I just need a place to set them down upon. 

The real beauty of Past Lives, to me, is the way it makes space. It is an interrogation of the self disguised as a movie. You know these people. You may have been then at some point in your life. You’ve used the same technology – the laggy jitters of Skype, the Facebook messages sent leaping into the unknown. The story is simple in its structure to make way for a stunning amount of emotional complexity. And that complexity comes not just from the film itself, but from you, the viewer. 

No film made me think about my own past quite like this one. It made me think long and hard about the parts of my life – both across time and space – that are inaccessible to others. How those from my childhood would not able to fully access my life here in Austin and vice versa. How there’s entire stories that I need to translate for others, over and over and over again, until I understand for myself why they matter so much to me. 

6. Killers of the Flower Moon

Killers of the Flower Moon - Fuller Studio

The last time Martin Scorsese made a 3.5-hour movie (2019’s The Irishman), I found a morning when all would be quiet and marveled at how quickly the time passed. Years of story flowed before me, all culminating in a gut punch of an ending. Just recently, I found another quiet morning to watch a 3.5-hour Scorsese movie – this one only three minutes shorter – and marveled at the how quickly the time passed, again culminating with a gut punch of an ending. This is the power of being in the hands of a true master of cinema. It’s what happens when you have an editor like Thelma Schoonmaker. When you have a writer like Steve Zaillian or Eric Roth. When you have talented actors like Robert DeNiro and Leo DiCaprio. When you have a devastating, centering performance from Lily Gladstone as Molly Burkhart. There are few people doing it like Scorsese and you can feel the man working with utmost focus to ensure he tells this story with equal parts respect and verve.

Not once did I wonder if we needed to see the whole story as presented. Everything has its purpose. The deliberate pace setting the Osage Nation chessboard up, punctuated by the sparks of quick, wrongful violence. The many characters established as dominos leading toward a death spiral they can’t escape. You won’t truly appreciate how devastatingly the entire thing falls apart if you don’t see how formidably it was built, how painstakingly everyone was put into place, and how quickly everyone became a body to be pulled in front of another body, scrambling to keep ahead of the trail of guilt.

I still think about two paired shots that take place just before everything truly descends into tragedy. Scorsese, along with his masterful cinematographer Rodrigo Prieto, sends the camera through a house full of Molly’s relatives and their partners. It’s a wide swoop of a shot. We see how it’s a little too many people – too many competing interests, both present and hidden – and how it does not nor cannot truly feel like home. The air has been poisoned with greed. You can feel it as much as you can see it. But as that camera slows, we see Molly’s grandmother, clearly at the end of her mortal coil, as the shot shifts to a house empty of everything but a single, solitary owl. It looks to Molly’s grandmother and nothing more needs to be said. Death is near. We are shown just how lonely it feels. To at once be surrounded by a true community and then to have it taken away within the next few breaths. The owl will return later on as more Osage die.

The surrealism of the owl, a powerful Osage symbol, shows just how genuine Scorsese and his collaborators are. In just two vibrant shots – one of worrisome plenty and one of terrifying scarcity – we see respect paid to a rich Osage culture and the way white man’s arrival and the destruction of their community has isolated them.

I still think about the final words delivered in the film, at the end of a dramatization of a radio show meant to market the FBI’s work in investigating the Osage crimes. For all we’ve seen – the tragedies, the blood shed, the history erased – we are reminded that those who did the most wrong were eventually released, and that the original owners of the land, the Osage, would be reduced to the sound of a mocking voice actor. And so Scorsese, playing a producer within the radio show, steps up to deliver a piece previously omitted: Mollie’s obituary. As he describes her life and family, the last line is the one that hits the hardest: “There was no mention of the murders.” If you can see how devastating the decimation of the Osage wealth and community in 1920s Oklahoma was, then you can only imagine how many other histories have been wiped out and swept under the rug. This is a film that will haunt you long after its final shot. As it should.

5. Spider-Man: Across the Spiderverse

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There are few films I’ve sung the gospel of more than 2017’s Into the Spiderverse. Every line hits. Every character lingers. Every action scene is full of emotion and confidence. And to top it all off, it assured many risk-averse studio heads that yes, you can invest in animation that looks a little different and it can be very, very successful. So how do you possibly follow up a film so many people consider a downright modern classic? It certainly helps to have producers Phil Lord and Chris Miller – a team that’s somehow made just about every bad-sounding idea into cinematic gold – back on scriptwriting duties. It also becomes apparent that so many of the people working on this astonishing film were inspired by the original before it. And that they all have the same collective goal: to take it one step further. 

What makes this film so memorable is how it takes it further. There is certainly a god-level amount of technical work at play here, with the way so many characters are crammed into scenes and yet remain distinct. The artistry alone truly feels like a supergroup gone supernova. But what I keep coming back to is the way it pushes our characters. One of the opening scenes alone, in which Gwen must confront her father about her identity, is one of the most gorgeous things I’ve ever seen or experienced in a movie theater. And to go there following a showstopper of an action scene with a DaVinci-drawing inspired Vulture time-tripping into a Guggenheim Museum with a pregnant and motorcycling Spider-Woman and for it all to feel as if it’s one piece? It’s incredible. How lucky are we such a thing exists? 

But I keep coming back to the way the film does a very Lord and Miller thing of using the meta idea of a canon – one that, as our cultural superhero infatuation has shown, is predominately white and straight – and how it affects the way we live our lives. Miles can see the way things should go. The person he maybe should be. But when the math doesn’t seem to math, he takes matters in his own hands, in another mindblower of an action scene where just about every Spiderman ever created is chasing him up a sky-ascending train, culminating in the line that sets everything into place just as it all is blown up: “Nah, I’mma do me.” 

I can’t wait to see what this means for Miles, Gwen, and the many Spiderfriends (especially Hobie aka Spider-Punk, one of the coolest characters ever committed to film) all wrapped up in this ever-expanding tale. I hope they take their time. The way the groundbreaking animation works with Daniel Pemberton’s invigorating score is just such a mood to bathe in. This is a series so committed to making something memorable that I know there’s nothing to worry about. They will do right by the characters and the audience. And we will be all the richer for it. 

4. Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret.

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As someone completely mesmerized by writer-director Kelly Fremon Craig’s debut film The Edge of Seventeen in 2016, her follow-up sat high atop my must-see list since the first trailer. You can tell James L. Brooks (Broadcast News, Terms of Endearment) is her mentor, the way she shares his warmth and empathy for characters while punching out one great line after another. But adaptations can be tricky, even when they’re esteemed sources like Judy Blume’s 1970 classic. Needless to say: Craig and her team pull it off wonderfully.

I saw this movie 9 months ago and still cannot shake Rachel McAdam’s performance as Margaret’s mother, Barbara. At the start, we learn the family is going to move to New Jersey for Margaret’s father’s new job, and that Barbara will take a break from her busy career hours to stay at home. McAdam’s eyes are lit with tickled possibility as she informs Margaret that now she will be able to spend all the time together they didn’t have before. Every parent knows this fantasy. That opportunity to trade in years of guilt for the levity of sharing something special. But then the real kicker comes in: time frees up just as Margaret becomes as independent and social as ever. She needs her girlfriends to talk about all the Big Girl things coming her way, and with a candor she can’t quite imagine having with her own mother. Barbara does her best to swallow the disappointment, and McAdams presents it in beautiful, heartbreaking fashion, a mother doing her best to find some light in a situation full of shade and isolation. It’s a valiant effort, one so consuming that she keeps forgetting to order the new couch they need. Barbara just missed the window. And now she’s a child, without friends, relearning how to deal with the world again. That’s the tough thing about parenthood – you are reminded of all the time of what you’re missing with your kids and then when you finally get it, it’s too late. 

In many delightful, all-too-human ways, Margaret spends the rest of the film trying just as much to figure out her beliefs on religion as her complex thoughts about these new phases of puberty. She sees the way religion tears her family apart – a thorny estrangement McAdam’s plays powerfully – and the way competing biological timelines threaten to spread giant cracks through every friendship she forms.

In the final scene, Margaret’s period finally arrives. She yells for her mother, who feels emboldened by the fact her daughter – so independent for so much of this wild New Jersey school year – finally needs her. “I don’t know why I’m crying,” Barbara says as they embrace. But we know. It’s so many emotions as a parent coursing through your veins, threatening to burst out at any moment. By this time, my tears are threatening to burst out, too. Barbara runs to get some pads she’s set aside for Margaret – because preparing for the possible future is definitely a parent coping strategy – only for Margaret to say she knows how to use them because she’s been practicing in her room for two months. You can see in McAdams performance – again, this should have won all the awards – how Barbara is doing the math, how she’s trying to sit her hurt at not being involved in this process along with her pride in her daughter’s growing persondom. “Well, then,” she says, pushing a smile as kindly as you she can, “You don’t need me.” She leaves the bathroom and shuts the door and that’s when my heart and chest caved in alongside Barbara’s. It reminds me of a tweet I read long ago where the difference between having kids and not having kids is not that you feel more emotions, but that you feel all of them deeper. McAdams as she shuts that bathroom door and takes it in all is Exhibit A.

Craig knows how to end this movie, this journey of a girl who’s spent so much time trying to figure out who she is alongside so many competing ideas, interests, and values. She’s had to wrestle with the opposing faiths of her grandparents and the competing interests of her fast-growing friends. She’s a duck calm above the pond but furiously pedaling beneath. And yet, here she is at the end, looking to the camera, a year older but untold years wiser, ready for the great unknown.

3. All Of Us Strangers

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Family can make it feel like your past life is frozen in amber. There are comments you never escape. Ill-fitting jokes that are always repeated. A constant feeling like you can’t escape the person you were back then long enough for them to truly see who you are now. An example: my siblings insist I am terrible with directions. Just the worst. Not a person to ever count on. But every time they say it, it baffles me into a quiet submission. We haven’t lived close enough the last decade for me to give them many directions. But then I remember the trips we took together – the Canadian adventure without a working GPS, the hunting for an apartment around the wonky, turn-heavy South Hill of Spokane. Their memory of my ability to give directions is strongest in places where of course I would be bad at giving directions. I had no idea where we were going, where north, south, east, or west resided. It seems silly, but when it’s brought up – still to this day – it feels like I’m being yanked 15 years back. There’s no escaping it. 

When Adam (Andrew Scott should have got all the awards for this) struggles to write a script about his one childhood, he finds himself mysteriously returning to his childhood home. And even though Adam’s parents died in a car accident when he was 12, they’re there to greet him. They were frozen in amber at the time of their death, and now they’ve been released. Their clothes or hairstyles haven’t changed. They are clearly stuck in the 80s. What at first seems like a great opportunity to make up for lost time is quickly undercut by the tension of Adam realizing he still hasn’t come out to his parents. He’s lived a whole life – full of loneliness, of success and failure – and they have no idea. They are now just as much strangers to him as he felt with them. 

The way that Andrew Haigh frames this story (based on the 1987 novel Strangers by Taichi Yamada) so elegantly shows how much we are constantly rewriting our lives. We’re looking back, imagining conversations we always meant to have and never did, wondering what choices could have changed our lives had they been different. While Adam’s reconnecting with his parents, he’s also starting a genuine, careful relationship with Harry (Paul Mescal). To say any more would be to give too much away. But I still think about the shock I felt at the ending, and the way Haigh suggests that maybe we’re just as much strangers to ourselves as we are to others. Maybe we’ll be spending the rest of our lives rewriting our way to a better ending, to who we want to be seen as.

2. Perfect Days

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So much of technology these days flattens the joy. Cinematography looks duller and less-inspired than ever in the streaming era. Music is torn from albums and mixed in ever-expanding playlists that encourage us, whether we realize it or not, to stay in sonorous silos. Kindles, as much as I love the convenience of them, rob of us of that feeling of speeding through a book and realizing you’re about to run out of the minor miracle we’re now absorbing.

Hirayama (a luminous Koji Yakusho) drives to work each day doing a simple job he takes great pride in. He has all his tools. He does his job with the kind of precision you can find great satisfaction in. On his drives, he makes great use of his work van’s tape deck, listening to only cassettes. What feels rather fitting is that Apple – and likely any service streaming this film – does not include the name of the song or who the artist is. The lyrics are not even subtitled. It makes our main character more inaccessible to me. I can appreciate the visual beauty he finds, but I’m missing a key part of what connects with his soul. Finally, I use Shazam, an app Apple bought and embedded, to identify the song for me. But it won’t even try to sell me on the album it comes from. Only the single. It wants the thing to be broken into sellable parts. It wants to dangle a carrot forever. That’s the society Hirayama finds himself trapped in.

What I find so gorgeous about this film is the subtle ways it tells us in its second half that this man, who seems to have it all figured out, is using his routine to find the meaning he’s long been searching for. He didn’t get it at the previous career he escaped from. He didn’t find it in family. And he certainly didn’ find it when his coworker quits one day, sending him spiraling into an unexpected fit over the phone, demanding for a replacement as soon as possible. 

We spend so much time thinking about what the perfect days would be – the resort we’d be drinking a margarita from, the family we’d be talking with, the delicious food we’d be ingesting – without considering how to make our everyday something we find great, accumulative meaning in. Perfect Days made me long for the analog, for the feel of bass and the warmth of tape, for the mistakes and questions, the mysteries and the wanderings. The way our routine can help us build these blocks of time in which we can, if we’re open to it, find a little bit of magic. 

1. Asteroid City

I don’t even know where to start with this miracle of a movie. Pick one strand and out comes more colorful string from another side of it. You can turn this film over like a Rubik’s Cube, shuffling and turning and gazing at every side and you’d find something new. Ask 5 fans what they think this movie is really about and you’ll get 5 really unique answers (and more than likely at least 2 that will describe it as a baffling bore). No 2023 movie has stuck in my mind for so many different reasons quite like this one.

I think about the boy who’s constantly doing stupid shit, jumping off of buildings and daring others to do wild things. We, the audience, are just as sick of his antics as the characters around him. Finally, someone asks what his deal is. His response will stop you mid-breath: “I don’t know,” he says, “maybe it’s because I’m afraid no one else will notice my existence in the universe.” Behavior is communication. And Asteroid City is full of people expressing shades of grief, confusion, and longing.

People make fun of Anderson for his layers of artifice. But it’s not artificial; it’s the realest part of his films. We are always making meaning. We are constantly reframing our lives. We try on different voices – our therapists, our parents, our stronger selves – like narrative devices, shaking the stakes around to see if any truth we may have missed drops out like a cosmic 8 ball.

When a wide-eyed alien interrupts a star-gazing ceremony in the middle of the movie, coming down to take the asteroid rock it spots, it sends the entire group into an existential tailspin. What is this alien and what could it want from us? But the answer is far more sobering when it later returns to drop off it off and leave. It’s turned over to reveal some kind of number. They’re simply doing inventory. It’s so deflating to everyone that one small town’s phenomenon is another alien’s documentation on a spreadsheet.

Similar to May December, Asteroid City gains great power from its narrative layers. It takes a couple viewings to fully understand when an actor is playing a character – but it’s all intentional. Towards the end of the film, Augie Steenbeck (a fantastic Jason Schwartzman) exits the play to go behind the scenes and find the director. Augie expresses he still doesn’t understand the character and wants to know if he’s doing him right. “I still don’t understand the play,” he says. “Doesn’t matter,” the director (Adrian Brody) reminds, while assuring him he’s doing great. “Just keep telling the story.” We’re all Augie in our lives. We’re all finding ourself in moments where we aren’t sure if we’re playing the role right. And we just need to be reminded that we’re doing great, that it all doesn’t really matter in the end, and that we just keep telling the story we’re in. Augie is a photographer and there’s a line he repeats often throughout: “My pictures always come out.” It sounds like he’s bragging at first. Like he’s a man incapable of mistakes. But the repetition reveals something deeper: that every effort we make at understanding life matters. A picture may be a thousand of the most truthful words you can manage in that moment.

Later on, the actors are working with Saltzburg Kietel (Willem DaFoe), an acting teacher very much based on Lee Strasburg, and he leads them in an exercise all based on a simple mantra: you can’t wake up if you don’t fall asleep. It’s a line that you unconsciously, intuitively understand before you truly get. You can apply it to the grieving process. You can apply it to just trying to figure out what you want out of this life. But the idea that you must be lulled into something, that you must sleepwalk, that you must wander and allow yourself to be lost before you can truly understand where to go? What a beautiful reminder. I haven’t shaken it since.

There is so much delight to find in this film. Scarlett Johansson’s incredible, heartbreaking work as a big-time actress all too aware the world doesn’t really understand her. The way Tom Hanks’ grandfather keeps pushing Augie to have the conversations even he’s not ready to have with his granddaughters. Jeffrey Wright’s rapid-fire ceremony monologue that somehow encapsulates the country’s anxious wartime history, culminating with the sticker of an all-too-relevant line (“If you wanted to live a nice, quiet, peaceful life, you picked the wrong time to get born”). The young class that breaks into song with “Dear Alien (Who Art In Heaven)”. The consistently gorgeous pastel-pasted shots throughout. There will always be people who don’t like or don’t get Anderson’s films. But he’s always able to corral a beyond impressive group of actors and he always finds a way to comment on the deepest and hardest of human emotions in such a colorful, almost child-like form. We’re all children trying to figure things out. And it’s not that Anderson hasn’t grown up; it’s that he understands us better than we’ll ever give him credit for.






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Adam’s Top 10 Films of 2022

March 24, 2023 by Adam Membrey

There’s a lot of great movies I didn’t get around to this year. The time constraints of raising a toddler meant my wife and I gravitated towards the shorter episodes of a television series rather than sinking into a movie we weren’t sure we had the energy for. So there’s an awful lot of surely great films I just never got around to, including: Wendell and Wild; The Sea Beast; Crimes of the Future; RRR; Marcel the Shell With Shoes On; Decision to Leave; Raymond & Ray; Weird: The Al Yankovic Story; Bones and All; After Yang; White Noise; Puss in Boots: The Last Wish; Women Talking, the list goes on.

As usual, a few awards to hand out before the Top 10. As is often the case, we got a few bangers and some all-timers that will (hopefully) only grow in stature over the years. Let’s begin: 

A Marvelous Party with (a) Punch: Thor: Love and Thunder 

This is the kind of movie where you get to see Russell Crowe, once the menacing Maximus in Gladiator over twenty years ago, wear a tunic and dance as a beer-bellied Zeus. Where giant screaming goats are inspired by a Taylor Swift meme. Where Thor spends quite a bit of time trying to convince his current battle axe, Stormbreaker, he’s not cheating on it with his old flame, his hammer Mjölnir. It’s an utterly ridiculous film in so many ways. Truly a film where Taika Waititi had as close to a blank check to do whatever crazy shit he wanted. 

But Taika’s films often have a more serious idea gently flowing underneath the silliness, and here it’s no different. Christian Bale’s Gorr the God Butcher sets the tone early on when he realizes the gods are not there to save him; they are only there to use him for their own bidding. When we see Jane with Stage IV cancer, we’re somehow convinced that if she can become a female Thor, she can certainly, through some form of Marvel magic, be cured. But Waititi connects Gorr to Jane in an unexpected way to underscore that not everything can be outrun. The gods will not save us. There are things that will take us away from what we love most and there isn’t anything we can do about it. It’s a pretty sobering message for a silly superhero movie! The rest of the movie doesn’t quite gel – the tonal shifts like heavy waves, the abundance of CGI shows its seams – but I appreciate Waititi’s desire to stick to his creative guns and give us a party with a different kind of punch to drink up. 

The Real Boy McCoy: Pinnochio 

The opening forty minutes of this artful movie made me think of a This American Life story I heard about years ago, where a couple’s show-business bull, Chance, died. In the fog of their grief, they allowed scientists at Texas A&M to clone the bull with Chance’s DNA, creating an offspring aptly named Second Chance. Except Second Chance acted nothing like Chance. In fact, he was unpredictable and, at times, violent. In this version of Pinocchio, Geppetto’s need to build his wooden son comes after losing his real son in a horrifying event. We know he won’t be the same as the real thing. And we know Geppetto will struggle to appreciate the difference as he works his way through the grieving process. 

While the film has a heavy dose of Catholicism spread through its 1930s Italy setting early on, it’s not until Pinocchio dies for the first time and 4 skeleton-bodied bunnies carry his casket through the underworld does it feel like a true Del Toro film. From there, we see a glowing winged spirit with eyes in their feathers, pontificating on the nature of death, loss, and memory. This is where stop-motion – and animation in general – really flexes its muscles. The level of detail in these puppets and their various sets is as incredible as you’d expect. A swap of the Pleasure Island for a fascist military training camp is a great touch. It all comes together to lead towards an ending as mature as it is melancholy; a true reminder that we will all be outlived by someone and to do our best to enjoy our fleeting moments together. 

Best Duo, Non-Nope, Non-Aftersun division: Bullet Train 

If you’re gonna tell a story almost entirely on a bullet train, you need a colorful cast of characters to keep things interesting. Fight scenes alone can’t do the trick. You need people worth caring about fighting for. And while I cackled with delight upon the reveal of the White Death (Michael Shannon, I missed you!) and a particular train passenger (The Lost City–Bullet Train connection bears some spectacular fruit), the duo of Lemon and Tangerine made it all work. Played by Brian Tyree Henry and Aaron Taylor-Johnson, respectively, the hilarity often comes from two guys desperate to be taken seriously despite their ridiculous nature. They bicker over their names. Over the details of the case. Over who’s gonna do what and shhhh to not talk quite so loud. They are like a married couple suddenly realizing a cross-country trip isn’t quite the relaxing thing they imagined. It all feels like quite the lark until one of them meets an unfortunate fate and you realize just how much these fine actors made you care. 

Way To Get Your Act Together: Barbarian 

This was one of the funner ways I’ve seen three-act structure play out. You can imagine it like thesis, antithesis, and synthesis. The opening 30 minutes or so give you a sense of just what the hell you might be in for. And then just as it gets you all terrified, it cuts to Justin Long playing a terrific asshole, singing his heart out while driving his convertible, wind in his air. It’s so jarring it made me laugh out loud. But then the real magic happens when the two storylines combine and you get to witness two completely different responses to the fucked up situation from two completely different people. A real bizarro delight.

Who’s This Weirdo?: The Batman 

If it wasn’t for Batman providing such cool, sleek imagery over the years, I think we’d all finally realize just how weird this superhero is (Lego Batman sure did an excellent job of pointing this out). Yes, he’s traumatized by losing his parents. But he also wants to dress like a bat – without all the fur, of course, because that would make it too weird. And he drives around with gadgets and would probably be a massive supporter of the 90’s grunge movement if it hadn’t already passed him by. 

So believe me when I say how much I enjoyed the first time Batman shows up to a crime scene and the investigators have this completely aghast look on their faces. Who is this guy? For the first time in forever, onscreen Batman looks so small. So meek. Like someone who barely believes in the thing he dressed up for. And then he builds himself up, everyone believing a little more in him just as he believes in himself. I don’t think the world needed another Batman movie – at least not so soon after Batfleck – but if anyone can make it work, it’s Matt Reeves. He really leans into the total weirdo Bruce Wayne is and Robert Pattinson absolutely sells this wrinkle on the character. And just when Batman starts to get a little too high on his supply, Reeves allows him to try a flying gadget and absolutely eat it as he stumbles across the pavement. He doesn’t have everything figured out yet. And that’s pretty fun to watch. 

Worth the Revisit: Elvis 

There are few people who use artifice to their advantage quite like Baz Luhrman. He’s willing to forgo realism to chase a feeling, willing to go big when everyone goes steady. He understands mythmaking intuitively because he himself is always building a myth each movie out. So seeing this on my in-laws motion-smoothing TV did this film no favors. Everything looked cheap. The yarn Lurhman unfurled became less tactile and far more plastic. 

And yet. 

It still worked. It still showed me the insane power Elvis had over his (especially female) audience. The way he would make the establishment crazy. The way he’d play into the image just as much as he tried to find ways to move beyond it. And while Tom Hanks’ Colonel Tom Parker doesn’t quite work in its fat-suit-with-a-questionable-accent form, you can see what Luhrman is trying to do in showing us just how much Elvis Presley himself got played. It’s a film as joyful as it is tragic, as exuberant as it is melancholy. It knows sometimes the brightest legends dim too fast because those at the controls aren’t watching the heat, only the money. 

A Twist Worthy of Tapestry: The Woman King 

Director Gina Prince-Bythewood aced onscreen chemistry with her films Love & Basketball and Beyond The Lights. Here, there’s a different kind of chemistry between Nanisca (Viola Davis) and Nawi (Thuso Mbedu). Nanisca is the weary, hardened leader of the Agojie, an 18th-century all-female group of warriors that later inspired the Dora Milaje of Marvel’s Wakanda. When Nawi is offered to try out for the tribe for being too stubborn against her father’s matchmaking, she struggles early. It’s through Izogie (a sensational Lashana Lynch) and Nanisca’s tough love she finds her way into the group. But in a polarizing twist, Nanisca and Nawi find themselves connected in ways they’re not sure how to absorb. 

The danger of making a historical epic inspired by true events is that something will always give. Hollywood needs simplification somewhere in order to bend the movie to the shape of what’s expected, and what makes a better movie doesn’t always make a better story. Here, villains are sometimes painted way too broad and love interests too contrived. But what absolutely worked for me is the exemplary performances from Davis and Mbedu as they navigate their tricky relationship. They push against each other. Learn from each other. Realize they can’t be without each other. It’s not romantic, but it’s as strong a relationship as Prince-Bythewood has guided to screen. 

Honorable Mention: Black Panther: Wakanda Forever 

This film had to be too many things. It had to honor Chadwick Boseman while the people involved were still grieving. It had to build upon the success of the first movie and expand the sandbox somehow. It had to tie side characters into the larger MCU story that had yet to be revealed. And it had to answer the question of who – if anyone – would be the next Black Panther. On paper, it feels like all the boxes are checked. The artistry on display is just as vibrant as anything Marvel has offered. Ryan Coogler and his team do not miss. But they are clearly burdened by more than just their heavy hearts. 

The film opens with T’Challa’s funeral, a visually stark affair that felt unnecessarily rushed, as if the MCU clock had set everyone’s watch a bit faster. I loved meeting Namor and the Atlanteans, but a film this overstuffed – having to introduce Riri aka Ironheart, even further – just doesn’t quite have enough time to let everything breathe. It’s why Namor’s turn towards villainy feels rushed. Why the final ocean battle is hard to get invested in until it focuses on Namor and the new Black Panther realizing maybe a battle to the death isn’t so necessary. 

There is so much to appreciate about this film – Angela Bassett’s gravitating performance (that should have won an Oscar), the updated details of Namor and his people, the way Ryan Coogler and co-writer Joe Robert Cole create scenes that allow their actors to properly grieve as much as their characters. I can only imagine how hard it was to adjust this story to make it what it is and then to follow through with filming it during a pandemic. It’s a task even vibranium can’t always save. Thankfully, the last scenes show us the promise of a brighter, freer future, a legacy carried on in ways everyone can build around. 

I See You and I Appreciate You: Jurassic World: Dominion  

Look, it is not easy to make a Jurassic Park sequel. I don’t care what anyone on Twitter or at work may tell you. Everyone thinks they can crack the Jurassic Park sequel code. They think they have an answer that Hollywood just needs to hear before they throw up all their spreadsheets, smack their foreheads, and go OMGYES. 

What makes the first Jurassic Park so great is that it’s about many things all at once. Yes, it’s a horror movie of being stuck at a suddenly malfunctioning park full of deadly dinosaurs. Yes, it’s a warning of what happens when you play God and mess with science without wondering if you should in the first place. When I was a kid, I couldn’t get enough of seeing these dinosaurs on the big screen. When I saw it as an adult in theaters – finally with subtitles – just before our daughter was born, I was struck by how this was really Alan’s story, about a man-child unconvinced of the place of children and the responsibilities of anything beyond his work. Just watch the Alan that arrives on the island and the one who leaves. He’s a stressed, anxious man as they enter. He leaves a relaxed, exhausted quasi-parent with kids at his side, smiling at the woman he loves but perhaps isn’t quite ready to commit to. He’s gone on an entire journey with these kids alone, calming them through Bronchiosaurus snot, electrified fences, and escaping cars stuck in ever-breaking trees. 

The second Jurassic Park goes darker and grayer (literally with the cinematography) and seems unsure exactly what human story it’s trying to tell while trying not to repeat itself. The third comes back to the theme of knowing better without a human story for us to dig into. And on and on we go. So you can see what Colin Trevorrow is maybe thinking when he brings back this Jurassic World trilogy. You see it with the brothers dealing with a divorce and the overworked aunt who fails to do her one job as everything goes to shit. You see it in the second film when they come back to the cruel obliviousness of humanity and pair it with cloning people (okay, that’s a stretch). And then you can see with this third film as they have giant mutant locusts (wait, what?), a high-speed dinosaur chase through a black market in Malta (uhhh), and then top it off with a finale in the Dolomite Mountains of Italy, where a company led by a clone of Apple CEO Tim Cook is determined to do something pretty nefarious with all of it (gulp). I almost resented the pure nostalgia trap of having Alan Grant and Ellie Satler back in the same vicinity until I realized I kinda love these characters and maybe after this crazy movie is over, they can try again in a non-giant-locust-infested future. They are both single and with renewed appreciation for each other, after all. 

When Dominion’s trailer first came out and I expressed my misgivings at the potential story and the blatant nostalgia drip of it all, my friend said, “Dude, who cares about the story? I want to watch dinosaurs eat people.” That’s when I realized a successful Jurassic Park means something different to everyone. If all it took was dinosaurs eating people, we wouldn’t need to worry about revitalizing this franchise so often. As I said, the original worked because it had so much going on. These are not easy movies to write. Or to shoot and execute. They are, like all movies, really, really hard work. So while I won’t be cueing this up again anytime soon, I salute the effort Trevorrow and co-writer Emily Carmichael made to go as big and crazy as they could with this finale. 

10. Glass Onion – written and directed by Rian Johnson 

I’ve been a huge fan of Rian Johnson since Brick, following him through the heady, wistful The Brothers Bloom, as he took a giant leap with the underrated Looper, and even as he made the most polarizing (but still the best) modern Star Wars movie in The Last Jedi. Dude has got significant writing chops, a reportedly delightful onset demeanor, and a constant, incisive desire to upend expectations. How could you not root for him? As great as Knives Out is, what makes Glass Onion really hum is the playful confidence with which Johnson disguises his intentions. He brings in quite the cast of new, conflicting characters (with actors rearing to play some new colors) and dresses it up with a Hidden in Plain Sight mystery and accompanying metaphor that still, somehow, managed to fool me. 

I hope viewers understand this ain’t easy. That they appreciate the utter craft on display. And that Johnson and Daniel Craig’s Benoit Blanc get to make as many of these movies as their heart desires. 

9. AmbuLAnce – written by Chris Fedak (based on original Danish film); directed by Michael Bay 

Sometimes the most ringing endorsement of a movie is how much you enjoyed watching it on a plane. I caught this in the wee hours of a morning flight I couldn’t quite sleep through and found myself desperate to finish it on the connecting flight. No one makes movies quite like Michael Bay does – certainly not with as many explosions and swirling cameras. Here, he’s bolstered by a story with clear stakes and clearer geography, a sandbox absolutely worth exploring. Drone cameras are usually used for languid, panoramic shots. Here, Bay uses them like smooth agents of chaos, like missiles seeking a new, accelerating angle for the viewer. 

The more sophomoric humor Bay can’t help but throw in is easy glided over by the tight story of a man trapped and with few options. Yahya Abdul-Mateen II absolutely sells the desperation at the core of his character. You understand why he makes the choices he did. You feel for him as he sinks further into the danger, like quicksand he’s not convinced he could ever escape. Jake Gyllenhaal gets to have a blast being a slick asshole who occasionally remembers its okay to have a heart. 

Half the fun of movies like this with their FUBAR plots is wondering just how it’s going to end. You figure Yahya has to survive somehow. Someone has gotta get a win. But what I didn’t expect is how much Eiza Gonzalez’s Cam would factor into it. Gonzalez is game for the challenge, completely shouldering the narrative chaos as the story wraps up with about as feel-good and sobering an ending you can ask for. This is an ambulance you wouldn’t mind going for a long ride in. 

9. Avatar: The Way of Water – written by James Cameron, Rick Jaffa, & Amanda Silver; directed by James Cameron 

 There isn’t anyone making movies like James Cameron now. Once again, the 3D is transporting. The blend of CGI and real elements is so seamless as to feel whole – you can’t figure out where one begins and the other ends. Even more: you don’t care. The bleeding-edge technology and explosive creativity (58 new ocean creatures!) that went into making this film possible is enough to make you sit down and take a deep breath. I so appreciate Cameron’s insistence on letting us, as an audience, just soak in all the cool shit his team has created. To allow us to explore just as much as the characters do. From a writing perspective, this is as structurally sound a story as it gets. So many things cycle back around in the end, leading to an incredible third act. 

But for all my jokes about how this was some unexpected sequel to Titanic (there is a giant sinking ship at the end, after all), the true ending caught me off-guard. After a frantic (but never rushed), high-octane action finale, the parents are stuck in a waterlogged ship. It’s unfamiliar territory to them. They were too busy being parents, watching over and scolding their kids, to really learn the way of the water. It is their kids who end up saving them. It’s the kids who remind them how to breathe, who literally and figuratively light the way back to safety. And if that wasn’t enough, Cameron allows us to mourn the death of a child in a way I can’t remember seeing another blockbuster do. It’s surprisingly tender and vulnerable, as if Cameron himself is finally letting us see his own lessons in raising teenagers. Sure, he can help design a submarine and go to the deepest known part of the ocean. But teenagers? Whew. That’s an entire thing to build a massive movie around. 

I’ve learned over time to never doubt James Cameron. I almost did this time – wondering if focusing a story on teenage avatars would be a step too far. But he, once again, proved us wrong. He may still be sinking ships. But he’s learned what keeps us all afloat. 

8. Top Gun: Maverick – written by Ehren Kruger, Eric Warren Singer, and Christopher McQuarrie; directed by Joseph Kosinski 

When I first heard Christopher McQuarrie was gonna be lending his hand to this movie, presumably to help them punch up the story a bit, I didn’t know what to expect. Was it a well-intentioned misfire in need of serious patching? Did they have a good thing they simply wanted to make better? Maverick doesn’t give you any chance to wonder. It’s as confident a movie from start to finish as I’ve seen all year. There’s no wonder it lit the box office on fire all summer. 

Knowing it’s been 30 years since the last movie, Maverick does an incredibly economical job in reminding us why this character matters and why this story will matter to us. We relearn everything we need to know about Maverick, the way he’s an excellent pilot who can’t help but push the limits, all of it punctuated by a stunned Cruise walking into a diner, and the story begins. 

What I didn’t expect is just how much emotional grip they would pull off with the relationship between Maverick and Goose’ son, Rooster (Miles Teller). Some of the best narrative tension you can have in a movie comes from an important conversation that’s yet to be had – and may never be able to take place. The way the movie recontextualizes Rooster’s anger towards Maverick as not about his father’s death but about the papers supposedly pulled and a career delayed is an incredible inspired choice that pays off big time. You feel it in your chest the whole way through. The way there is so much Maverick wishes he could say but can’t. The way he has to guide someone who may always hold anger against him and may never know the truth. There are so many things going on – both narratively and thematically – throughout the movie and yet it all operates with electric efficiency. The crowd I saw it with absolutely cheered in multiple places. A film that soars to heights no one ever expected. 

7. The Lost City – written by Oren Uziel, Dana Fox, and Aaron & Adam Nee; directed by Aaron & Adam Nee

What makes this movie work so well is Channing Tatum’s sincerity. The first time we see his character, Alan, we know it’s all a facade. He’s supposed to be a dumb cover model for all Loretta Sage’s (Sandra Bullock) romance novels. She certainly sees him that way. And she doesn’t see why she should care at all about anything he has to offer. He’s just the pretty face. 

But what makes this such a delight is the way the movie inverts the expectations. Loretta does not need Alan. She’s not ready to put herself out there again, at least not with a little push. Alan, on the other hand, is absolutely convinced he’s one of the few people to understand just how wonderful and brilliant she is and that it is his job to make sure she understands that. There is not one cynical muscle in Tatum’s chiseled body. He absolutely sells it and it elevates the movie scene by scene. We’ve seen him do comedy with ease in the Jump Street movies (and an especially fantastic Bullet Train cameo). But here: he’s like the dancer he is, fully aware of how to use his body for maximum effect – dramatic, comedic, or romantic. When he puts the moves on Loretta and convinces her to dance one calm night before the storm, you start to believe in them just as Loretta does. It’s quite the swoon. 

This is a movie about someone seeing you when you’re not quite able to see yourself. Someone who sees your sparkle and knows how to make it shine once again. And sometimes that person is Channing Tatum. And that’s pretty neat. 

6. The Fabelmans – written by Tony Kushner and Steven Spielberg; directed by Spielberg

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As much as I adored all of EEAAO’s many well-deserved Oscar wins, the lack of love for The Fabelmans shocked me. Spielberg is Hollywood royalty. But I suspect many voters assumed they knew what movie they were getting and glossed over the actual pain and honesty imbued within it. Spielberg isn’t interested in a nostalgia trip to simpler times. He’s excavating the past, trying to present the truth it took him an entire lifetime to digest. 

There’s a scene late in the film when Sam Fabelman’s parents reveal to the children they’re about to be divorced. Sam literally sits behind the whole scene, halfway up the staircase. He’s at a remove. Then he looks up at the mirror and there’s another version of him, moving around the family scene with a camera. In the most devastating moment of his sisters’ lives, he can’t help but film it. He can’t help but see what he can make of it for his art. Any writer or filmmaker watching will feel devastatingly seen in this moment. We’ve all done it. We’ve all slightly removed ourselves in the most painful moments of our lives, wondering just how we’ll write about it, just how we’ll paint the characters involved. And when you know just how much Spielberg has put his own personal family history in each of his films, it hits especially hard. He’s not here for a victory lap. He’s here to look in the mirror like never before. 

Spielberg has always been a director to give kids more credit than they often get in the movies. Here, the kids aren’t freaked out by the fake blood they see in Sam’s films. They catch on to things before the parents do. They’re not dumb. They are as observant and honest as anyone, unwilling to hide behind lies they cannot quite keep track of. 

But as personal as this film is, his collaboration with Tony Kushner – their fourth – is quite funny and full of joy in the way you only can see when you’re looking back through the lens of being a parent yourself. Spielberg understands how hard his parents – especially his father – tried to make it all work. There’s an appreciation for what he had married to a desire to understand what made him who he is. Like Aftersun, we see an artist trying to truly understand their parents and amending their image in the process. 

5. Turning Red – written Domee Shi & Julia Cho; directed by Domee Shi 

“Some people are like, ‘Be careful. Honoring your parents sounds great, but if you take it too far, well, you might forget to honor yourself.” It starts to feel like it’s gonna hit you over the head with it as we gaze at a great photo of Meilin and her parents. Then the camera zooms in and Meilin breaks the fourth wall with: “Luckily, I don’t have that problem.” It’s only a minute and a half in, and we already got this 13-year-old assuring us she’s been doing her own thing her whole life. But then we see her actual life, and we see the truth. We see someone we know all too well: a person trying their best to live in a realm where denial doesn’t exist. 

This film absolutely emanates thematic confidence from the very first frame. It knows what it’s trying to say and what it’s trying to be. Creating an animated film is such an exhaustingly iterative process, running through choices over and over and over again until you stumble on the ones that feel best, all before committing to the expensive, time-consuming final renderings. So when sheer joy emanates from the screen like this, you know the team has galvanized around something they truly believe in. It’s beautiful. 

Between the absolutely perfect metaphor of the red panda, the fictional-but-all-too-real boy band, the delightful characters in Meilin’s friend group, and all the inspired choices pushing this film towards the end, I sat in awe at its ability to never lose sight of its message. Meilin stumbling into her mother in a dream forest is one of the most emotionally and thematically rich things I’ve seen all year. All of it funnels into a highly memorable final act Pixar will struggle to soon top. 

4. Everything Everywhere All At Once – written and directed by The Daniels

When I first saw this movie back in July, I had great love for it but figured it would be too weird to ever great any proper kind of awards consideration. Well. Five major Oscars will certainly challenge that thinking. 

What I found most endearing about this film’s release is just how many of the elders praised what The Daniels pulled off and instinctively understood this was the kind of movie that would change the language of film for the next generation. It’s not for everyone. But it’s certainly a style that jibes well with the internet and the way it’s collectively warped all our brains. The Daniels’ last stunner of a film, Swiss Army Man, mined great pathos from a farting corpse and his delusional pal. Here, they go even deeper, challenging the idea of nothing meaning anything and finding great meaning behind doing laundry and taxes with those you love. 

At times, this film’s maximalist style felt like it overwhelmed the story and lost me for a bit. But then it came back, laser-focused, in that scene in the rain when Evelyn does her best, knowing it may be her last chance, to connect with her daughter and show she cares. Don’t be fooled by the flying butt plugs and hot dog fingers. This is a movie with a heart so big it barely fits inside the cinema. And to see it embraced as much as it has been is one of the year’s great surprises. 

3. The Banshees of Inisherin – written and directed by Martin McDonagh

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For much of my life, in a way I could not entirely explain, Ireland felt like a place that called to me. Perhaps it’s the red in my beard. Maybe even the way I enjoy some judicious use of swearing. It’s certainly not because of the beer, a beverage whose enjoyment I base on my levels of tolerance. When I came out of my first long-term relationship, the world feeling wide and full of possibility, the cards began to fall in just the right manner. My cousin was living in Manchester and eager for my visit. The summer program I often worked was cancelled for budgetary reasons. My summer, suddenly wide open, suggested it be highlighted somewhere – anywhere – with an Irish-green hue. 

There are two times in my life when I’ve felt myself in the presence of something elemental, something full of deep history that dwarfs any man’s existential crisis. I first felt it when stepping barefoot into the coarse, otherworldly sand of the Big Sur shores. Huge rocks with edges and surfaces etched from millennia of weathering and seawater were strewn about, like paperweights meant to stretch the tarp of the Pacific Ocean. I couldn’t help but lay upon one of them like Ariel, the protagonist of my favorite childhood movie, hoping for the perfect shot of waves crashing behind me. It felt like a place where past, present, and the unknown future collided and ebbed and flowed in your mind, much like the water itself. A wave of peace washed over me. I would spent the next few years searching for anything approaching that. 

When I took my solo trek to Ireland, I found myself restless again about the future. What did I really want to do? Whom did I really want to be? I tried to calm my mind in Galway with some stress eating, getting a personal Pizza Hut pizza and an ice cream cone – a true tourist meal. I adored how Galway sat on the edge of the Irish coast, like a whisper hugging the rocks. The next day, I took a trip to the Aran Islands, where the Banshees of Inisherin would be filmed. So I recognized all of the scenery – the impossibly green grass, the stone fences strewn about the island and keeping the cattle in their place. It felt like a place hidden from the world – perhaps because you had to take a boat to get there, one where the waves would rise above your head on either side of you as the engine muscled its way through. 

The way McDonagh and cinematographer Ben Davis frame the island and the characters within it is a true thing of beauty. Every shot feels motivated and thought through. They have made a simple story on a small island feel as epic as anything in theaters today. I went to see Wakanda Forever the following week, and for all the globetrotting, sea-diving adventures it takes, it can’t match the intimately epic and epically intimate feeling of Banshee. 

As the story unspools, I felt myself gripped with Colm (Brendan McGleeson). I just turned 36, and there seems to be something about how you feel invulnerable and gonna be around for awhile all the way up to 35. But 36? Shit gets real, real quick. It started with Jonathan Tjarks dying at 34, an awful, tragic loss and realizing he would never even get to be 35. Then it was followed by relatively young family members dealing with pretty scary health issues. Suddenly, 36 sounded like something to be thankful for. A huge note to write out, saying, “Thank you universe. I ask for nothing further.” But we still have to live. And there are still lives around us needing us to live. And there’s still creative ideas pinging around in our heads, desperate for a conduit to find its way into the world and make someone, somewhere, feel just a little less alone. When Colm finally gets around to explaining why he’s suddenly unfriended his closest friend, Padraic (Colin Ferrell), he describes the sudden pang of realizing there isn’t much time left to make a mark in the world and that, as a result, he must rid himself of dull endeavors as he pursues creative immortality. 

There is no way for us to know if Colm really is even that good of a musician or writer. Because I think McDonaugh isn’t trying to excuse the personal costs of being some kind of creative genius, but rather to own up to how it impacts others. He wants to push everything aside, but he finds himself lonelier. And he’s truly wounded his best friend in irreversible ways. 

As the tension between the personal war of these two friends increases, Colm admits to another character a most devastating thought: “ I do worry sometimes I might just be entertaining myself while staving off the inevitable.” It made me think about all the time I spend writing out my little story ideas in all kinds of files and places, unsure if I can even keep track of all of it and, in my demoralizing moments, unsure whether any of it is worth keeping track of. 

What makes this film stick can be summed up in the last line, when Padraic says: “Some things there’s no moving on from. And I think that’s a good thing.” Our culture is franchise and reboot heavy, willing to undo any death or consequence to keep people feeling fine and happy and unbothered by the future. But there’s a cost to that. It becomes easy to be that perpetual early-30-something until you hit the wrong side of 30 and you’re unprepared for what’s next. Some things there’s no moving on from. And that’s a good thing. 

2. Nope – written and directed by Jordan Peele 

It may be no mistake that the summer film that felt the most like a movie to me has a structure nearly identical to Jaws aka the original summer blockbuster. This is only Jordan Peele’s third movie and I believe this to be his masterpiece. Get Out is a tight story told with tight execution. Us is far more sprawling and ambitious in its ideas, but doesn’t quite pull it all together. Here, Peele seems to have striked just the right balance. There is so much that can be gleaned from this film, any number of ways it can be read, and yet Peele has you glued to every beat, every moment, every line. 

The brother-sister relationship between Daniel Kaluuya and Keke Palmer feels like a true sibling relationship, in the way they irritate and amp each other up. The tech guy (Brandon Perea) is a complete blast, a Dave Franco from a weirder parallel universe. And the cloud monster: what a fucking creation. What a brilliant way to give us something alien and unsure while underlining every one of your themes with terror and awe. Also: a surefire way to get me invested in your movie is to have a chimpanzee. Leave it to Peele to make it a haunting, unforgettable simian experience.

I’m still flabbergasted that the Academy gave this film no love. Especially in a year in which EEAAO won all the awards. In time, it will get its flowers. Until then: don’t stare into the eye of the monster for too long. 

1. Aftersun – written and directed by Charlotte Wells 

This film shows us three different ways we can be haunted. There’s the digital video from a camcorder, the way we can revisit the past in all its grainy glory, looking for clues to explain the entire life that came after. There’s a strobe light on a dance floor, full of bodies dancing to the same beat, allowing us flashes just long enough to wonder but not long enough to truly understand. And then there’s the way we try and live in the present as a parent of our own child, wondering how much or how little we’ll be like the parents that brought us into the world and just how much or how little we want that to be true. 

As the movie ended, I found myself quiet and deep in thought. So much to consider. So many details given, specific but not so specific as to inhibit our own memories from bleeding through. Emotions to recognize even if we’ve never been on holiday at a resort in Turkey. What I keep coming back to is the film’s use of two popular songs – R.E.M.’s “Losing My Religion” and Queen and David Bowie’s “Under Pressure” – and how I’ll never hear them the same way again. 

When “Losing My Religion” first burst out onto the scene in 1991, the first single off R.E.M’s Out of Time, I was five years old and far too young to understand the song or the resulting controversy from the music video. As a teenager, desperate to be as rebellious as my Catholic guilt would allow, I glommed onto it, convinced it was some daring rebuke of organized religion, an absolute earworm for the agnostic soul. It was only later I learned the term ‘losing my religion’ is also a Southern expression for losing your shit. Stipe himself once said it was about romantic expression. Sometimes romantic expression makes you lose your shit as well. 

But in Wells’ superlative debut, a new, devastating context is offered. In another one of those carefully suggested details, we learn Sophie (an electric Frankie Corio) and her father (a devastating Paul Mescal) have a tradition of doing karaoke together on these holidays. She’s put their name on the list. It’s a rare thrill at a resort devoid of any true escape. But as soon as they’re called up, her father resists. He’s just not in the mood and there is no room to bend. So she slumps down the stairs and onstage, alone to sing this song. All the sudden, the lyrics can be heard anew. 

That’s me in the corner
That’s me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don’t know if I can do it
Oh no I’ve said too much
I haven’t said enough

I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

You’ve probably heard these lyrics before. Perhaps a thousand times on the radio. But here, you can’t tell who is singing to who. This could be Sophie singing to her father, who’s become increasingly distant and hard to get through to.  It could be her father, watching his 11-year-old daughter grow past what he can understand and protect her from. It can be so many things. And it caught me all in the chest just as her isolation on stage increases and her voice wears down. 

As a parent, it’s hard knowing when you could do better for your kids, when you could give them a little bit more fun, but to feel too exhausted to follow through. You’re doing the best you can but it doesn’t always feel enough. Colum had Sophie had such a young age, when most of us don’t even have a clue what we want to do or what we want to be, and you can see him trying desperately to figure out his own life so his daughter won’t worry about him too much. She knows better than she gets credit for. And he knows it.

But the beauty of Aftersun is in how we get glimpses of adult Sophie – sometimes only flickers of her silhouette through an artfully-placed dance hall strobe light – trying so hard to understand her own father. She may never get there. Much may be left to mystery. Maybe she will hear “Losing My Religion” on the radio and wonder, again, if it says more about her father or herself. It’s a dance that never ends. We can only keep showing up and seeing where the light may fall.

All of this cascades into my favorite movie ending since 2004’s Before Sunset. Once again drawing from a familiar pop song, Wells juxtaposes a young Sophie reluctantly dancing with her father on their last night on vacation with the dance hall strobe lights as older Sophie searches for her father. Bubbling beneath it is “Under Pressure”. What makes it work so well is how the most immediately familiar part of the song – the heavy drum beat and first notes – are stripped bare, leaving Mercury and Bowie’s vocals and a cello. Whether Wells intended it to be or not, it’s a great auditory metaphor for the way we must rehear the past to better understand the present. And knowing what we know about Sophie’s father, the lyrics, like with REM’s “Losing My Religion”, hit especially hard:

Pressure pushin’ down on me
Pressin’ down on you, no man ask for
Under pressure that brings a building down
Splits a family in two, puts people on street
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Watching Calum dance that night at the resort is the freest we’ve seen him since dancing alone on a balcony at the beginning of the film. It may be his last free moments before he sends his daughter back with his ex-wife and has to deal with his own demons. And the way Wells ends the film, it may be the last time Sophie ever truly sees him. We’re always searching to understand our parents, especially as we may become parents ourselves. We’re dancing with the past, present, and future, all at once.

Early in the film, Sophie tells her father how show thinks about the sky. That no matter how far away someone is, we’re all sharing the same sky. Sometimes blue, sometimes grey and moody, but the same atmosphere on the same planet at the same time. At some point, the sun will set on our parents and closest friends, and we’ll play over and over those days of shared light, making sense of its shadows and glares. And maybe we’ll have a pretty great pop song playing underneath all this reflection. I’m just so grateful to share a sky where this movie exists and to be able to bask in the Aftersun again.

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Adam’s Top 10 TV of 2022

March 23, 2023 by Adam Membrey

A key thing my wife and I learned this past year is that the exhausting endeavor of the toddler bedtime routine left us with just enough time, energy, and brain space for a simple episode of television. Thankfully, the Age of Streaming provided a lot of options. There may be some spoilers. Here are some of my favorites:

10. Peacemaker (Season 1 – HBO Max) 

James Gunn has made an entire career out of skirting expectations. While I enjoyed John Cena’s turn as Peacemaker in Gunn’s darkly playful The Suicide Squad, I didn’t fully understand how they were going to wring an entire TV show out of him. 

What best signifies the fun of this show is the unmissable theme song. Gunn knew TV show themes were often skipped, especially when the streaming apps themselves offer the option to do so. So he picked a rad song and had a dance choreographed and performed by the entire cast. Skip this, you can practically hear him hollering. What makes the whole dance sing at first is seeing these actors of varying athletic ability pull off moves both sultry and awkward. But here’s the thing: you don’t know who all these people are yet. And you won’t know many of them until further into the show. Each consecutive time you watch the theme song, a particular actor and their character becomes more recognizable – sometimes hilariously so. And then as the show really roars along and the bodies pile up, the dance takes on different flavors of delight and melancholy. Gunn wants you to feel things while also having a bit of fun. And to do it with a completely game cast ready to perform each and every move. 

I don’t know that Cena’s ever going to get quite the platform as he does here. We see him cry in his tighty-whitey underwear. We see him mourn the loss of an eagle. We see him bouncing on rooftops as he suffers a great fall. We also get to see him chew up Gunn’s dialogue with delight. Cena’s role here is the kind of thing a post-Guardians of the Galaxy Dave Batista long craves (someone get on that, please): an opportunity to show every shade of emotion and physicality, mixed and shot up with a heavy dose of fun and pathos. Any concerns you have of someone like Cena carrying a story will be quieted here. A complete blast from start to finish. 

9. The Afterparty (Season 1 – Apple+)

It’s a pretty simple equation of what makes this show so much fun. You take a bunch of the most likable comedic actors alive (Sam Richardson, Zoe Chao, Dave Franco, etc) and match them with the concept of each episode being a “mind movie” as they try to explain to a determined Detective Danner (Tiffany Haddish) why they, in fact, should not be considered a murder suspect. Each episode allows these actors to play their characters in different shades – in the style of a 90s show, an action movie, or a musical, for example – and to wring consistent laughs out of the tension and emotional turmoil of it all. 

What really makes this show sing, however, is how everyone is not quite where they want to be. They’ve come back to high school for their 15 year reunion – itself an awkward time between the better-known 10 and 20 year reunions – determined to make amends for the life they’ve lived up to that point. It adds an extra layer of delicious, hilarious tension to an already tense murder scene. 

8. The White Lotus (Season 2 – HBO Max) 

The White Lotus' Season 2 Finale Scores Series High Audience – Deadline

Season 1 of this show certainly had its charms. A gorgeous Hawaiian setting. Hilarious, dialed-in actors bringing characters with sharp, pokey edges. The occasional daring thought (before backing off or dropping it altogether). 

Season 2 not only transported the setting to Italy, but found more to work with. There’s the generational philandering of the Di Grasso men; the lively, humorous hotel (mis)adventures of Mia and Lucia; the superawkward, ever-moving quadrangle of Ethan & Harper and Cameron & Daphne; Tanya’s increasingly bizarre misadventures with her overwhelmed assistant, Portia. The various stories going on here just seem to be working on a much more interesting level than the first season, playing off their conflicts in concert with each other. 

What I keep coming back to, however, is Kate Aselton’s 2010 film, The Freebie. In it, a young couple decides to give each other a night off – they can pursue their crushes, they can do whatever – and come home with no questions asked. The greatest trick Aselton pulls is that we never see the end result of either Annie’s (Aselton) or Darren’s (Dax Sheperd) night. We don’t know what either of them went through with. So when they argue about it towards the end, fully convinced the other is being dishonest with them, we have nothing to stand on. We can only choose to believe them at face value, just like their romantic partner. Very quickly, you can see how even the sturdiest of relationships can collapse from the weight of the unknown. 

There is something similar happening towards the end of this show when Ethan is consumed with what he believes Harper did behind closed doors with his buddy Cameron. We have no idea what actually happened. So when Ethan and Daphne, both bewildered by the actions of their spouses, decide to walk to a remote part of the coast together (after an incredible bit of acting from Meghann Fahy), we have no idea what they actually did. We just know both couples seem to be content with where they end up in the final episode. Maybe they’ll last forever. Maybe they’ll collapse under the weight of the unknown. 

There is so much more going on in this show, but it all centers around this idea that we never truly know what’s happening behind closed doors. And when we do, we must choose whether to believe it or not. It positions The White Lotus – be it in Italy or Hawaii – as a purgatory of sorts, where characters must decide whether to appeal to the better or worse of their angels; there is no going back to the way things were. 

7. Our Flag Means Death (Season 1 – HBO Max) 

Filming on water is expensive. You gotta get the crew out there on multiple boats. You gotta coordinate. Light is precious and fleeting. Clouds may muck up the whole thing. You gotta hope no water animals are too eager for unexpected screen time. It’s a lot to deal with. So I completely get why Our Flag Means Death, even being an HBO show, would keep their pirate show on dry land. 

I recognize the way they manipulate the light and sky in the show to try and hide the stageboundness of it all. At first, I found myself a little disappointed. I wanted the bluest of skies. I wanted to see the ocean surrounding them. But then I realized that was never the point. This isn’t a show about adventure as much as it’s about being forced to deal with who you really are. With the choices you’ve made. With the lives you’re running away from. 

Even when they manage to get off the boat, the settings are just as claustrophobic. An island inhabited by people eager to send them back the direction from whence they came. A bar full of conflict and crossed paths. No matter where you escape to, the past will gain on your trail. 

Every actor here seems to be utterly delighted to be on board, even as they do their best to show a soured soul. Rhys Darby, in particular, represents a lovely, goofy heart to build around. But what makes this show really sing is how creator David Jenkins and his team don’t show away from truth. These are delightful obtuse men at times, but they are also savage and cast a long shadow. 

Taika Waititi hasn’t had a chance to act this deeply since his debut film, The Boy, where he played an alcoholic father unwilling to accept the the cost of his past lives. This is also some of the best acting I’ve ever seen from Darby – finally given a chance to really dig deeper into a character not yet ready to admit his own reality. I can’t wait to see what Season 2 has in store. 

6. Succession (Season 3 – HBO Max) 

Every season of this show seems to be a bit of a magic trick. There’s a lot of walking and talking, of phone calls aboard private jets and helicopters, of board room meetings in high-rise skyscrapers and expensive, hidden vacation spots. It’s a world many of us wonder about but have no access to. And we should wonder: these are the people who make decisions about our media culture and how the rest of us should feel about the world at any moment. The show’s co-creator, Jesse Armstrong, has made it clear their key influence are the Murdoch’s. Americans may not be familiar with them beyond Rupert Murdoch owning Fox News, but their story goes much, much deeper. They began in Australia, scooping up the media there. Then they came to America and England. They are everywhere. They have incredible influence on what is and isn’t covered. They are also a family prone to infighting, especially as the head patriarch continues to age. 

As all of these things happen every season, I’m always amazed at how little narrative ground actually seems to be occurring while we get incredible scene after incredible scene with incredible actors, often punctuated with a bitter line or exchange. By the sixth or seventh episode, you start to wonder if the show is just repeating itself, stuck in motion. But then it shifts gears. And then you realize the gears were being built all along, as if they hid Checkov’s guns in every room in the house, and they were just waiting for the right moment to fire. And when it does, it is a bang to remember.

Season 2 ended with Kendall pulling quite the ballsy move – one we weren’t convinced he had in him – to draw his cannon on his own father. So I expected Season 3 to start off with the fire hose on full roar, only to realize this show is far smarter than me. 

We hear inklings early on of an FBI raid, of the government being aware of just what Waystar Royco is up to, and yet it doesn’t feel for a while like anything is gonna happen. Considering our current political situation where we have a number of things going on – a Jan 6th commission still in play, classified documents being found everywhere they shouldn’t be – with few visible consequences, this tracks far more than I realized at the time. The IRS is not for the wealthy; it’s for us nonmillionaires, after all. 

But I will tell you that I genuinely gasped when the Hidden in Plain Sight storyline finally came to fruition. I still get goosebumps thinking about it. So masterfully hidden. Yet the clues are all there. This is one of the best written shows on the planet and yet it takes a careful, watchful eye to fully appreciate it at times. I’m just glad we were paying attention. 

5. The Dropout (Hulu) 

Pun fully intended, I didn’t think any more blood could be drawn from this story. I had read John Carryou’s barnburner of a book. I had seen Alex Gibney’s documentary. And then here came a show, nearly two years after Theranos was such a hot topic, the resulting trial almost blurring into the background, looking like it would be too little, too late. 

I could not be more wrong. 

There are two facts you need know. That another Elizabeth Holmes movie, sheperded by Adam McKay and titled Bad Blood, was about to film with Jennifer Lawrence as the lead. Then Jennifer saw Amanda Seyfried’s electrifying, heartbreaking performance and thought: “Yeah, we don’t need to redo that. She did it.” The other thing you need to know is the showrunner is Elizabeth Meriweather, the New Girl creator. The alchemy of a terrifying, sobering true story about hubris and deception gone wrong on a scale of billions of dollars combined with Meriwether’s sitcom and character humor is a delight. She wrings laughs and pathos out of comedians and actors alike, infusing this oft-told story with new, revitalizing blood. The bad guys are still 100% the bad guys. But what I appreciate more about this version of the story is the way it restores the dignity of everyone around Holmes and her boyfriend. These were incredibly bright people around her doing their very best to make the impossible happen and yet being reminded each and every day they were utter failures. That they weren’t bleeding enough. They fought their hardest in a culture of cruelty – one we recognize all too well these days – and, in the end, the good guys won out. 

I’m quite astounded at the way Meriwether and her talented team of writers and directors were able to add nuance to Holmes without letting her off the hook. Seyfried deserves all the awards for the way she sinks into this role, the way she shifts her voice and her mouth to wear a costume we know doesn’t feel as comfortable. She plays Holmes as someone determined to be someone at any cost, finding herself too deep in the woods to ever begin to recognize the writing was on the bark of every tree. 

I keep coming back to every supporting actor and the way they acted as our audience surrogate, completely aghast at the game being played and struggling with their powerlessness to do anything about it. The show also shows to great effect how much the people around Holmes fed this death spiral of a mission. They found themselves so enamored with this young, blonde woman of ambition and, being older, white men, could not bear to admit they may have been wrong in their judgment. It’s a pretty hot thing in our media stories these days to villainize the tech billionaires, but The Dropout shows us there’s far more to it: there’s an entire onion of evil enabling that must take place for such an already-collapsing core to rise to such heights. 

The show’s title refers to Holmes herself being a Stanford dropout as she went out to start Theranos. But then I think about the title another way, the way the circles protecting Holmes hardened so much it was possible for her to drop out from the middle, like a little battery you just gotta pop out and replace. We see this in the series final scenes, when Holmes returns to a completely empty Theranos office, a true ghost town, with her dog alongside her. The company’s lawyer (a low-key spectacular Mikaela Watkins) is aghast at Holmes not understanding the significance of what she’s done. It’s only later, after Holmes has left the building, just a suddenly-normal woman in yoga pants taking her dog for a walk, that she lets out a primal, shattering scream. Yes, she got away. But she also lost it all. And the worst – the trial, the money owed – is yet to come. 

4. Andor (Season 1 – Disney+)

Star Wars to me is like basketball. I used to shoot hoops after school, one ill-advised 3-point after another. I played on a few teams in school before giving up after my freshman year of high school. I still enjoy dribbling and taking shots, feeling my way through the clunking misses on the way to the more seamless swishes. I enjoy basketball in doses. But what I really enjoy, I found, is the storytelling behind basketball. Specifically, the NBA. I loved learning about The Mailman (and Scottie Pippen’s immortal line to make him miss at the free-throw line: “The Mailman doesn’t deliver on Sundays). I loved following LeBron’s career from that first HS Sports Illustrated cover to his first championship in Miami, to his breaking Kareem Abdul-Jabbar’s all-time points record on a Tuesday night in LA. My buddy Trey and I are always reminding each other that the best time of the NBA season is the off-season and the trade deadlines, when players get moved and career narratives radically change. It’s a blast. 

Star Wars was the same way. I got into it when two of my best friends – or at least dudes I wanted to be best friends with – were playing with Star Wars figures. That led me to the VHS movies – at the time the longest movies I’d ever seen. That led me to buying an occasional Star Wars toy here or there, but never with enough interest to amass a collection. By the time I got to high school and college, I became far more interested in the story behind Star Wars, and even found myself deep into blog posts that made creator George Lucas out to be the worst thing to ever happen to Star Wars itself. I was convinced. I told the same stories myself. But here’s the catch: I never watched the prequels everyone made fun of. I saw one in a theater and remember only how the crosscutting made it seem like one character was holding its breath underwater an unreasonable amount of time (Obi-Wan, you should have drowned!). 

When they brought back the sequels in recent years, it became much more fun to talk about everything outside of the films themselves. The casting. The directors and their aims. The directors fired off of Star Wars movies because of their aims. It was a lot of hot Hollywood gossip sticking itself to actual story-making on a grand scale. I found myself the most invested in Star Wars when one of my favorite filmmakers jumped up to the big leagues and made the best one of the films in many years. 

So, of course, I did not care for most of the Star Wars shows that were coming out. The Volume sounded cool but immediately put me off – I could see the seams and the limitations too easily. I didn’t find the story interesting enough to pull me through the constant train of Easter eggs planted everywhere. It wasn’t for me. 

But then the story behind the story became more interesting with Andor. Here was a guy in Tony Gilroy who, like me, had zero reverence for the franchise. He just wanted to tell a good story. And here he came, hot off of kinda-sorta fixing Rogue One, to tell another story. 

Much has been made about how surversive it is for a giant corporation to allow an anti-giant-corporation series to be made. But they’re missing the point. Disney wants such a show to be made. It allows them to still be who they are while creating content they can monetize. It’s not as subversive as it seems. 

However. 

I am so glad this show exists. I still think about Luther’s line of “I made my mind a sunless space” at least once a week. I think about the way Gilroy and Team built those first three relatively quiet episodes as a subtle building block to kickstart the story. I think about the palace intrigue and the complete lack of anything screaming franchise or toys. This is a show that wants to tell a story about what it feels like to be under the foot of a growing empire and to feel powerless to push back and yet unable to quiet the growing, gnawing need to fight. In other words: a perfect show for our time.

3. Barry (Season 3 – HBO Max) 

It says a lot about what a magic trick this show is when the first moments I remember make me laugh with glee: the bomb thwarted by a phone’s wifi connection; Barry voice-texting an increasingly violent message while wandering through a department store; the meeting with TV execs as they describe to Sally what they’re looking for in a TV show while also having no idea how their algorithm works; the shoot-out that happens over a Zoom meeting atop a building. I could go on. This is a show that never fails to find some darkly comic beat to lighten the more brutal storylines. And this season had some pretty brutal moments. 

What I will remember most is how much Hader (and his team) upped their game even further than I knew possible. Just watch the way he has his team shoot, edit, and manipulate the sound design when Sally loses her shit in the finale’s sound booth scene. Watch how he somehow elevates the tension of a motorcycle chase scene that spills onto a crowded LA freeway without losing its humor. And then see how this all plays out before laying down his final winking Winkler card. This is a season that had Barry go as dark and terrifying as he’s ever been, where death not only seemed certain but perhaps the only way to release him of increasing guilt. They wrote themselves into a helluva corner by the end of the season and I cannot wait to see how they write themselves out. I have no doubt it will deliver. And I have no doubt I will miss this show as soon as it’s gone. 

2. Severance (Season 1 – Apple+)

I am still, many months removed from seeing the season finale, in awe this show is not based on a book. It’s so deeply thought-through, so meticulous in its detail and design. The statues in the cavernous halls. The quotes that sound so much like someone who once lived, so rattling with truth and hubris, and yet are completely fabricated. This is a show with a long, difficult birth, one necessary to appear so fully-formed from the beginning. 

The idea of a procedure that blocks life memories while you’re at work and work memories while you’re living life is such a haunting, perfect representation of the work-life balance we all talk about wanting to acheive. I still think about the scene in the pilot, when we find out Mark’s (Adam Scott) wife passed away before his procedure and his sister tells him, “I just feel like forgetting about her for eight hours a day isn’t the same thing as healing.” You know she’s right. And yet Scott absolutely sells how necessary this job at Lumon is for him, how there’s no escape to be found anywhere else. 

I found myself delighted at every new detail of this show. The old-school approach to technology. The set design. The narrative gymnastics it pulls with seamless aplomb. The way it ends at just the perfect moment and just the perfect line. What a goddamn show. I just want to hug them all and tell them to take their time with this new season as I eagerly await its arrival. 

1. Station Eleven (HBO Max) 

Perhaps it was inevitable considering Patrick Somerville’s involvement. A writer on perhaps my favorite show of the last decade (The Leftovers), and a co-creator of some of my favorite recent shows (Made for Love and Maniac), his taste seems to align very closely with mine. But still. This knocked me flat in ways I didn’t expect. 

Having not yet read the source material, Emily St. John Mandel’s eponymous novel, I went in knowing only it had a pandemic and the majestic acting powers of one Mackenzie Davis. But a common thread in Somerville’s shows, perhaps something he learned from his time on The Leftovers, is the way it plays with form, time, and memory. Even the ghosts walk among us like real people; it’s often only a well-timed cut and suddenly-empty space to alert us to the line between life and death. 

There is so much about this show to love – the depth of the characters, the way the parallel timelines bring out heartbreaking colors in each other – but I feel like the penultimate episode sums up what makes a series like this so special. Titled “Dr. Chaudary”, it follows Jeevan (an exemplary Himesh Patel) as his ill-fated attempt to track down a young Kirsten in the woods leads him to an abandoned store full of pregnant women, all of whom are convinced he is a doctor who will help them bring their children into this mad world. On paper, it sounds insane, but it’s the little details and the performances that bring it together. This is something shows Somerville is a part of do so well: they take the absurd and give it all the emotional honesty it needs to make it sing. But when it seems Dr. Chaudary’s time is up, he returns to an empty cabin. Kirsten is long gone and he has no idea where she is. It is only then, for the first time in the story, he admits he is not okay. The time at the pregnancy center reminded him of how every day and every action since the outbreak of the pandemic has been to serve others. He hasn’t made one choice for himself. And it’s left him broken and alone. Then, his brother – a ghost amongst the living – comes to comfort him. Jeevan never intended to be Kristen’s surrogate parent. But he watched out for her and protected her as if he was her own. And now she’s lost in woods dangerous enough to make him the receiving end of a wolf attack.  “I’m not okay,” Jeevan says. His brother, a ghost made flesh, if only temporarily, comforts him. “Hey. You got her here,” he says, “She’ll find someone. She’s good at it. She found you.” This absolutely killed me. It crystallized the fear every parent – surrogate or not – has for their child. We always worry about the time we won’t be able to save them. And we struggle against the knowledge that one day we definitely won’t be able to save them. But when Jeevan’s brother says she’ll find someone because she found him? That hit me in all the feels. 

When Jeevan and Kristen do meet again (spoiler alert!), nearly 20 years after that fateful splitting in the snowy woods, the show had built my anticipation in an honest way. I wanted to see them together even as I wasn’t sure how I would feel. Davis and Patel play it masterfully – almost underplaying it – and everything floods to the fore. It reminded me of Kevin and Nora in The Leftovers, that moment when you see someone you’ve lost forever and want to hold them, if only for a moment, because you know you’ll have to let go of them again. There may have been flashier shows in 2022. But none made me believe in the power of people while breaking my heart and putting it back together again quite like this one. Somerville, you did it again. 

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Adam’s Top 11 of 2021

April 23, 2022 by Adam Membrey

Parenthood does wild things to your brain. You may have noticed it’s nearly May and I’m just done writing about movies that came out in the 2021 calendar year, a time that ended nearly four months ago. I used ‘nearly’ twice in the previous sentence. Time is relative these days. So is my amount of working brain cells.

Another example of parental brain warp: I struggled initially to come up with enough movies to fit this list. Admittedly, many of them came in the opening months of 2022 as I tried to catch up with all I felt I missed. And there are still many more films I have yet to see and will surely be talking about in the future, including: The Green Knight, Drive My Car, Nine Days, The French Dispatch, West Side Story, Nightmare Alley, Titane, to name a few. Yet as I set up this lighthouse of a list, stray ships slowly came in from the fog. I had, it turns out, seen more than I realized. I found small joys in the big things and big joys in the little things.

I’ve heard it said that parenthood doesn’t make you necessarily feel anything new, just the same things even deeper. Your mind plays over all the ways things can go wrong and the devastating despair accompanying it. And then you have moments where your daughter sits there, looking at you, a look of love and calm no island vacation could ever compete with. Some of these movies made me cry harder than I ever in my life. Some of them made me laugh so hard I was sure I discovered the center of my body, the place where my contracting abs finally hit a wall. And some of them baffled me in ways I could only grow to appreciate because the world looks so different – both simpler and more complex – when you see it through the eyes of a parent. There is no going back to the way I saw movies before. This is the new norm. And it’s pretty dope.

A Dress of Delightful Excess: House of Gucci 

Everything about this movie is too much. It may be too long. It tries to squeeze a lot of disjointed story into its movie sleeve. It’s got one of the weirdest sex scenes I’ve seen in a long time. Jared Leto successfully disappears under layers of makeup. Everyone wears delightful outfits. Lady Gaga gives it everything and her accent is a choice I nevertheless greatly appreciated. The entire cast is clearly enjoying their time making this film, clearly enjoying the pageantry and scenery of it all. And then Ridley Scott just makes it all move at such a clip that you don’t realize until the end you’ve seen just about the wildest fashion house story ever told. 

Embracing the Inner Child: Godzilla v Kong 

This is the rare blockbuster franchise film that seems to get what many others of its kind don’t: sometimes the most logical thing to do is to embrace the child logic we’ve long abandoned. The coolest part of Transformers as a kid was not the 20,000+ moving CGI parts we could see but never comprehend onscreen (as you can see in any of the last 5 Transformers). We didn’t need an explanation or realism; it just looked cool. The best Transformers film of the last ten years is actually Pacific Rim, which embraced simple concepts with gorgeous complexity, all while never forgetting these were giant, thudding machines and beasts beating each other up.

There is no better use of awesome child logic than when Godzilla fires a blast of atomic breath straight from the Earth’s surface to its center, opening up a passage to Hollow Earth. It makes no goddamn sense, and yet: I cackled with utter, complete glee. There is surely some in-universe explanation for all this (being drawn to power sources and blah blah blah) but all I could think of was an increasingly petty, increasingly insecure Godzilla just done with Kong talking shit about him.

The absurdity of it all only increases from there as Kong discovers a Battle Axe built by his common ancestors, furnished with a torn-off atomic dorsal plate of Godzilla’s ancient kin. Like, did I really just see a major blockbuster film suggest a wild ancient history of titanic creatures fighting each other in ways only dinosaurs could dream of? This is a film that gets it. Sure, there’s bizarre narrative dressing involving (mostly delightful) human actors, all doing their best to make the film feel a little more weighty than it really needs to be. But God Bless Warner Brothers and Legendary for allowing a film with two 300-foot plus behemoths to be this wild and weird.

The Lost World Award: A Quiet Place Part II

Three years after the monster success of Jurassic Park, Steven Spielberg arrived with its sequel, The Lost World. The dinosaurs became even more front and center, with ever-improving CGI and animatronics. Spielberg cranked the action up by several magnitudes, with an unforgettable trailer cliffhanger, weaponized jeeps chasing fleeing, desperate dinos, two T-rexes tearing a man apart, a gymnastics-inspired raptor fight in an abandoned building, and a rampage through San Diego. It’s a movie that perhaps took the wrong lessons from the first film and blew everything else up. Yet so hypnotic is the result it took me over half my life to realize I kept falling asleep during the movie because it wasn’t that great.

Writer/director John Krasinski is very much channeling more-is-more TLW Spielberg with the way he repeats the structure of the original and uses the sequel as an exercise in showing his filmmaking muscles, going bigger and wider and louder. I just wish he went deeper. 

Everything about this movie can be summed up in a chase scene early in the film. Desperate to escape a chasing monster, the entire family runs through an abandoned barn towards the camera, debris falling behind them. Notice how I said ‘behind them’? That’s because there’s no sense of danger. Yes, there’s a monster jumping and throwing its weight around. Yes, there are scaffolds and platforms and bits of metal and concrete falling. But it never feels like Emily Blunt or her kids are ever threatened. It reminded me of the sequence in Peter Jackson’s King Kong – another instance of a new blockbuster director draped in excess – where the entire team tries to outrun a desperate, sprinting stampede of dinosaurs. The actors are doing their best to sell it, but the iffy composite work breaks the illusion: we know they’ll live.

It was maddening in the first film how often the ASL would get cut off by the frame. This happens several times in the sequel, and it feels like a metaphor of sorts. The aim to scale up the scope and craft pretty images ends up handcuffing the story it may be trying to tell. Just like with Lost World, the actors absolutely give it their all, drawing you into a deeper film that’s not quite there. And just as Lost World moved beyond Isla Nubar to the show fresh destruction in San Diego, Part II finds an island it nearly just as quickly destroys.

You know it’s a sequel when they Millicent Simmonds use her makeshift CI against a bigger speaker for a bigger signal across a bigger expanse of land. This isn’t the first sequel to repeat an original’s structure while dialing up everything else, and it certainly won’t be the last. But for a film franchise so obsessed with sound, it would be nice to see it return to finding the unmistakable, emotional signal amidst all the noise.

Try So Hard, Die So Hard: Space Jam: A New Legacy

You can see the thinking: bring on LeBron James – the man argued on a daily basis to be either the Air Apparent to Michael Jordan or everything MJ isn’t, depending on which side of the generational divide you talk to – and bring in a producer like Ryan Cogler, the writer/director behind the immensely successful Black Panther, and try to make a movie that’s actually good and not ironically good like the original. 

But sometimes the problem with having too many good intentions in the kitchen is that you overdo it: you make a meal so large and varied, no one could possibly enjoy it. Space Jam: A New Legacy is the filmic embodiment of a food coma – too much to absorb in the moment, and something you won’t remember the next day. 

You can follow the film’s logic. It wants to be hip to the audience, thinking itself especially clever for coming up with a villain that’s literally an algorithm. But what it seems to show in self-awareness feels to be a complete lack of it. It wants to be meta without understanding the meta its chasing is deeply unflattering. At times I didn’t know what movie it was trying to be: a good one, a clever one, or a shameless plug for HBO Max. There are elements of a good film here, with the way the conflict between LeBron and his tech-loving son plays out, the way the final game relies on LeBron himself accepting his son isn’t like him and should be allowed to pursue his own thing. But it will never not be disorienting to see the Night King, the It Clown, and the A Clockwork Orange gang cheering from the sidelines of a supposed kids film. In the end, the villain isn’t the algorithm; it’s Warner Brothers’ own hubris, assuming the algorithm knows us better than we do ourselves. But we’re not fools: we recognize when we’re being played. 

A Hopeful Beginning: CODA 

I love Twitter for the variety of takes it exposes me to. It helps me see my own blind spots and sometimes violently disagreeing with something helps me clarify my own thinking. But sometimes there is such a thing as reading too many takes. Where the topic is so sensitive and complicated that you can’t help but feel Twitter has hooked you into a kind of Brain Matrix, where you cannot separate your own thoughts from the Twitter hive mind. 

This was CODA for me. From the minute the first trailer hit, much of Deaf Twitter had a strong opinion, to say the least. It felt like the film would lean into harmful stereotypes we’d been working for ages to dispel. By the time the film rolled around, months later, the matrix had bored its way deep into my brain. In the months after seeing it, leading all the way up to the Oscars, I fluctuated between feeling like I was being too hard on it and, at other times, like I was being too passive and gentle. 

I choose instead to look at CODA as a beginning. It gave us our first Deaf Oscar winner since Marlee Matlin 35 years ago, paving the way for Troy Katsur and Youn Yuh-Jung to give us one of the most touching Oscar moments I can ever remember. Writer/director Sian Heder winning Best Adapted Screenplay gave her a chance to be a true ally and bring an interpreter on stage with her for her acceptance speech. And the many ways Heder and her team did their best to create an accessible set for her Deaf stars hopefully sets the standard for Hollywood from here on out. Let’s hope this is just the beginning and we’re well on our way to ‘narrative plentitude’. 

WTF Twist of the Year: Malignant 

There is a very, very specific tone this film carries through the first two-thirds of its runtime. James Wan and writer Akela Cooper know how to keep the scenes serving as building blocks for a narrative while doubling as possible clues to the final twist. When it finally comes, it literally unleashes a particular brand of hell delivered with utmost glee and confidence. This is a show delighted to exist and clearly fun for everyone involved to make. The energy is infectious, all the way through its batshit crazy final minutes. 

Return for a Better Grade Award: Zack Snyder’s Justice League 

There was no reason for this to exist. At no point during Joss Whedon’s 2017 version of Justice League – a film he took over after Snyder had to step aside to deal with a family tragedy – did I feel like the film had been wronged. Truncated, maybe. A weird hodgepodge of styles, yes. But a genius project deprived of enough air to truly soar? Seemed unlikely.  

Warner Brothers set a horrible precedent in spending many millions on allowing Snyder to go back and fulfill his vision. Way, way too many film journalists were harassed, doxxed, and harassed some more by fervent, deeply misguided fanboys in their pursuit to “Release the Snyder Cut”, a cut that, for all intents and purposes, did not actually exist. It’s one of the most toxic campaigns ever conducted. It should have been ignored. But desperate for some top billing streaming content to debut with its new app, HBO MAX, Warner Brothers gave in, to the tune of $70 million. I still think this should never have existed. However.

Two things can be true at once. 

The way this previously two-hour film got blown up into four-hour, six-part film, showing in bizarrely letter-boxed 4:3 ratio, often feels far too much like a student redoing and returning an assignment for a few extra points. They were never gonna get an A, but at least the effort will be rewarded with a slightly better grade. There is far more CGI, of varying quality. The villain is redesigned because more is more. The story is shifted and significantly restructured in parts. I’d be useless to tell you how much has really changed since the original was so deeply unmemorable beyond Henry Cavill’s CGI mouth. 

And yet.

A lot has been written about Whedon’s behind-the-scenes treatment of Ray Fisher and his Cyborg character, which felt marginalized in the original film. A lot of reporting has brought to light just how toxic a dynamic Whedon created on-set, for Fisher and for many others. So it’s pretty nice to see Cyborg’s role restored to its beefier status as the beating heart of the team, and for Fisher’s committed performance to truly get a chance to shine. You can imagine how demoralizing it must be to win a role you’re convinced will level up your career, only to be pushed off the screen and fighting a battle in the press for some accountability of the way you’ve been treated. The best story of Zack Snyder’s Justice League isn’t the one onscreen, but the ones along the margin it restored.

The Icarus, You Brave, Crazy Soul Award – Annette – written by Sparks (Ron & Russell Mael); directed by Leos Carax

I am so glad a movie like Annette exists. I don’t know that it’s necessarily a good movie. But it is an amazing movie. It matches the high-brow – great actors like Adam Driver and Marionee Cotillard – with the possibly lo-brow in a simple story of love poisoned by fame and jealousy. Oh, and there’s lovechild puppet, played completely for real. 

I thought a lot about Carax’s last film, Holy Motors, and how it was one of the last pure cinematic experiences I could remember. Aided by Alamo Drafthouse’s No Phones Allowed policy, we all sat in the dark, both narratively and literally, awaiting the craziness. I know for a fact none of us in the audience would have appreciated the movie the same had we watched it from the comfort of our own home. The claustrophobic nature of it all kept us so locked in so we could hum along with every bit of this fever dream of a film. 

Annette, for the most part, had to be seen at home. And you can feel how badly it needed to be seen in a theater. I applaud Carax for his bold vision and for Cotillard and especially Driver going absolutely full-tilt in their roles. Also: “Stepping Back in Time” is a total banger. 

Reclaiming the Narrative: The Matrix Resurrections – written by Lana Wachowski, David Mitchell, and Alexsander Hemon; directed by Lana Wachowski 

Perhaps it’s just my exhaustion from the daily fanboy whining and entitlement I see on Twitter everyday, but few things delight me more than an artist who reminds us, as we should be reminded, that they do not owe us a single goddamn thing. The way Lily Wachowski destroys all your expectations in every aspect of this film is something that still brings a smile to my face. She saw the way the franchise had been purposefully misunderstood and weaponized by some of the worst people around, and how it would only continue to sink further into the moral morass if she didn’t do something about it.

This is a film made by a voice emboldened. You can tell she wants to wrestle back ownership of the narrative once taken away from her and her sister, and she’s going to cauterize every wound in pursuit of a clean, satisfying ending. The door is open for more, you could say. But I felt like this was a filmmaker who rediscovered purpose in her life – after suffering significant loss – and could only smile, after being so long in the dark, at the open sunshine ahead of her. 

The Arrival Award: Pig

It did not take long for Arrival’s first trailer to convince me I needed the whole meal of a film as soon as possible. By the time I finally saw it, I was coming straight from a long day of teaching. I figured the popcorn and constant munching would keep me awake. It failed. Perhaps it was the conditions created from the AC coolness and the new and very comfy theater seats. I have no idea. I just know that, despite my best efforts, I passed out for a chunk of this movie’s middle, only to wake up just as the incredible story turn takes place. You know, the one that makes you go, “Oh. My. God. This is the best movie ever.” And here’s the thing, the only reason I did not declare it the best movie ever afterwards is because I felt like a judge who stared at his phone too long before looking up for the figure skater’s final, dazzling move: my authority just wasn’t there. What if what I missed wasn’t that great? What if I fell asleep for reason not contingent on the theater but for the movie itself?

(Spoiler: it was definitely my fault.)

A very similar thing happened with Pig, a movie perhaps irreparably harmed by the misconception this was just gonna be John Wick but with Nicolas Cage and a dead pig. I kept waiting for the film to shift into something more in line with expectations, and yet it impressively fought me at every turn. This is such a deeply soulful film. So, of course, I had to succumb to the comfort of the couch and pass out through a small chunk in the latter half. Yet, as with Arrival, I woke just in time to see the climatic scene where the film finally lays all its culinary and thematic cards on the table. It’s so vastly different an ending than I ever expected, and one rich in metaphor and emotional depth. It’ll remind you of how good food can be just as much of a memory-packed time capsule as music, books, or film. Art you can and should truly digest. 

11. Barb and Star Go to Vista Del Mar – written by Kristin Wiig & Annie Mumolo; directed by Josh Greenbaum

My wife and I first watched this less than a month into being new parents. We were sleep-deprived. I remembered really enjoying this film, but felt most struck by the adorable, enduring friendship between Barb (Annie Mumolo) and Starr (Kristen Wiig). The thing about being a sleep-deprived parent is you’re likely to forget a lot of plot details and only the essentials will remain – if even that. So I went over Wikipedia to remind myself of the actual plot of this story and, whew. They sure packed a lotta plot into this thing. But they also had a blast doing so. Wiig plays a truly bizarre, totally effective weirdo villain by the totally really name of Sharon Gordon Fisherman. Jamie Dornan shows up and kills it. Even Reba McEntire has a hilarious running gag of a role as Trish, the water spirit. 

You can tell the entire cast had a complete blast making this inspired bit of absurdity. But what I keep coming back to is Barb and Starr. It’s hard to believe it’s been over a decade, but Wiig and Mumolo earned a well-deserved Oscar nomination for the BRIDESMAIDS script they co-wrote. The true key to that film’s runaway success was the film’s central friendship, between Wiig and Maya Rudolph, clearly modeled upon Wiig and Mumolo’s. It’s really sweet to see them aging up the friendship while keeping the same bond in Barb and Star and daring themselves to go even weirder than ever before. Who knows? I have no idea what their next film with a central female friendship will be about, but I hope it goes as inspiringly, delightfully weird as this one.

10. Luca – written by Jesse Andrews & Mike Jones; directed by Enrico Casarosa 

At some point, it gets old to see corporations fund stories that work harder to save the planet than the corporations themselves. Disney has insane cultural, technological, and economic power, and yet: it will probably plant a million more trees for Avatar 2’s release in December and then will go about its way perpetuating some of the worst impulses of capitalism. Sometimes I wonder if there’s a mandate in the highest of corporate offices that at least 75% of the big-budget films (which is all Disney seems to make these days, anyways) must be about saving the world, just so that the audience may be lulled into thinking that, actually, guys, everything will be fine no matter what cruelty of indifference the moneyholders show the rest of us. All of this to say: I’m so glad to see a movie with such small stakes again. The world is not in danger of ending, but a friendship is – and the beauty of Pixar is how they make both scenarios equally terrifying to consider. 

I will never forget the moment Luca exposes his friend and yells “Monster!”. The look of betrayal on Alberto’s face could crush a thousand hearts. It’s awful. And you’re fully aware in the moment of just how mean it all is. The central sea monster metaphor may get muddled at times, but the way the story can go from that cruel moment to its warm, heartfelt ending is a bit of Pixar magic.

9. Encanto – written by Charise Castro Smith & Jared Bush; directed by Jared Bush, Byron Howard, and Charise Castro Smith

Among the many things to admire about Encanto – the stunning and inclusive variation in character models, the earworm music – I keep coming back to the way it personifies the fracturing of a family. We’re told for so much of the film that Mirabel doesn’t have a talent, even though we know she’s going to turn out to have one. She has to! This is the Mouse House, after all, the Kingdom of Happy Endings! But I did not expect the film to curve further and further inward until you couldn’t help but feel everything it wanted to say. Mirabel just wants her family to be happy. She wants the status quo. She wants peace. But she cannot stand the idea of her being the reason for it being broken. The way the whole family heals whole again, all from the efforts of a determined Mirabel, is as inspiring a story as anything Disney has been a part of. 

8. Raya and the Last Dragon – written by Qui Nguyen & Adele Lim; directed by Don Hall, Carlos López Estrada, Paul Briggs, and John Ripa

We’ve all heard the phrase “in these divided times” far too much. And the many variations spun out of it only make it more nauseating. We know. We get it. And yet because there’s so many capitalistic forces working above us as we toil below, it can be easy to feel defeated and to feel like that’s just the way it’s been, it is, and it always will be. And yet. Sometimes seeing how simple things fracture allows us to see how they can – one day – be brought back together. Sometimes, a little trust is what thaws the coldest heart.

I hoped, after the way Disney and Lucasfilm absolutely did Kelly Marie Tran dirty in Rise of the Skywalker – really, it did a lot of fine actors dirty – that they’d throw their full synergistic corporate energy behind Raya. And yet it had the misfortune of being stubbornly released in the thick of the pandemic, when vaccines had just been released and people were still unsure of the movie theater. 

It’s a true shame because once the film gets past the aggravating Awkwafina AAVE, there’s so much to treasure about it. The way it opens and ends with the same event, separated only by the one side of betrayal, hurt, and loss, and the other with renewal, trust, and community. The way it allows people to have a change of heart. It’s not easy to make a movie about trusting others in such fractious times as we live in now, but the team pulled it off. And through it all, there’s a powerful heart beating beneath it, unafraid of grief and not having all the answers. All of this leads to a cathartic ending that hurt my chest and left a stubborn, yet welcome lump in my throat.

7. The Suicide Squad – written and directed by James Gunn 

It’s so bizarre to see James Gunn – once considered the heir apparent to Joss Whedon (yikes) as the Chief Architect of the MCU – having such a blast in the DC sand. It took a pretty unfair firing (for some admittedly terrible tweets from over ten years ago) from his third Guardians of the Galaxy film to set this all in motion, but after some time away from the spotlight of Twitter and the muckraking press, Gunn found himself with a golden opportunity to reignite a Suicide Squad that was once DOA after David Ayer’s 2017 version made more of a dent in merchandise than a favorable impression on anyone. 

The glee is palpable from the get-go, from the way Gunn has fun with shadows and angles in a sun-drenched prison to a beach invasion gone horribly, hilariously awry. From there, it only builds with the typical Gunn skill in deepening these goofy characters into something we cannot help but deeply empathize with. This is perhaps no more apparent than in a truly absorbing shot midway through the film where King Shark, the lovable, often-confused CGI wonder he is, sits in a van at night, staring longingly at his reflection in the window. These are broken people, we’ve been told. But only because they’ve been put in increasingly inhospitable situations. It’s not like anyone thought it would be a good idea to give a shark arms, legs, and board shorts. Even characters as ridiculous-looking and sounding as Polka Dot Man are given their own running gags with emotional payoffs. 

It all comes together in a final act showdown with – of all things – a truly massive starfish. You know you’re always going to get some good, darkly humorous one-liners in a Gunn film, but it was great to see him bring the other half of his formula – the heart – in such a wide, colorful variety of ways. 

6. Power of the Dog – written and directed by Jane Campion 

Benedict Cumberbatch has a voice. We often talk about the celebrities we could listen to read a phone book, but Benedict? He could read the blandest, most pathetic lines and his voice alone would make them sound like something stumbling upon Shakespearean. This places him in that special British actor class of Alan Rickman, Jeremy Irons, Michael Caine, and many others. I still remember seeing the otherwise forgettable Star Trek Into Darkness – the one JJ Abrams kept swearing didn’t have Khan in it only for Benedict to most definitely be Kahn – and sinking into the reverberation of Cumberbatch’s voice through the theater’s overwhelming sound system. His character may have been a dumb misdirect, but the man sold every syllable of it. 

So believe me when I say in a movie full of numerous superlatives – the golden hour, silhoutte-rich cinematography, the delicate yet assured editing, Campion’s open-hearted yet closed-fist direction, the entire extraordinary cast – the one that still strikes me the most is the way Cumberbatch cracks your heart. Even more of a marvel is how it has so little to do with his voice. Sure, he luxuriates in a bit of an American cowboy drawl, but we come to learn how much of it is a cover, a costume. Phil Burbank is a man bruised by time and loneliness, and the way we see a hurting man dare to feel hope again, all through Cumberbatch’s face, is what lifts this film into the unforgettable. There is so little room to be vulnerable in this American West, room that is rapidly shrinking. Power of the Dog possesses one of the year’s Top 3 Hidden in Plain Sight narratives (alongside Righteous Gemstones and Succession), and I’ll remember it most for the way Dr. Strange came under a heartbreaking spell he didn’t see coming. 

5. The Last Duel – written by Nicole Holofcener, Ben Affleck, & Matt Damon; directed by Ridley Scott 

It sounded horrible from the beginning. A movie based on the true story of a 14th-century French woman sexually assaulted and the resulting duel that took place between her perpetrator and her husband, each fighting for their own truth of what happened to her. In other words: two men fight out what history records of a woman’s sexual assault.  And it’s gonna be made by three men: director Ridley Scott and writers Ben Affleck and Matt Damon. As much as I respected the filmmakers involved, I had to say: yikes. Even when news broke of the involvement of Nicole Holofcener (Please Give, Enough Said) – a truly underrated writer/director I’d love the non-Twitter crowd to more readily embrace – I wasn’t totally sold. Without knowing the structure, it sounded too much like she’d been brought in for damage control. 

But guess what? This is a truly fantastic film. While it initially came and went, a product of Hollywood’s ever-changing release strategies in these wild times, Film Twitter eventually course-corrected. People finally saw the actual product. And they, far more often than not, came away disciples. Count me as one of them. It’s got epic scale, bruising action, and, believe it or not, is quite funny – and not just because of the haircuts. Also pretty crazy: Ben Affleck has bleach-blonde hair and a bleach-blonde goattee and he’s one of the best parts of the film. 

What’s brilliant about this film’s structure is giving Matt and Ben the first two acts and Nicole the third is definitely going to make you think it’s a bandaid job by everyone involved. Except that’s totally the point. The first act follows Jean de Carrouges (Matt Damon) and when my wife remarked how stilted the dialogue sounded, I knew something exceptionally clever was afoot. Carrouges is not an educated man. He does not read books. He has a kind of brutish pride clearly hiding his own insecurities, perhaps even over his awful haircut. And its perfectly dramatized in the way everyone responds to him and the he comes across as the heroic underdog. When the film shifts into the second act, it follows Jacques Le Gris (Adam Driver), an educated, flirty man – so the dialogue becomes more playful and sophisticated. But Le Gris is also the man who has committed the horrible crime against Marguerite de Carrouges (Jodie Comer), an act that appears in all 3 sections of the film. By the time we roll in the third act, I was already laughing at the way Holofcener repaints everything we have seen through Marguerite’s eyes. Immediately, holes are poked in the puffed chests of all the men we’ve seen before, and their lies are laid out in the sun to shrivel. 

Scott has proven his skill at filming brutal battles before, and here he’s in top form. These men aren’t just fighting for their lives. Le Gris is fighting to preserve the punishing patriarchy he’s clearly profited from whereas Carrouges is fighting for his wife’s truth and his own pride. It’s an ugly, exhausting battle, where Scott makes us feel every punch, push, and stab. But the trick of it all is the most brutal fight doesn’t even happen in the arena. It takes place before, when Marguerite is on trial, a hall full of old men and obeying women. Fighting through tears, sobs, and a restricting corset, she begs to have her evidence and pleas considered. The only responses she gets are ones Holofcener knows are deeply recognizable to women – the accusations disguised as questions and punishing contempt disguised as conspiracy theories – and Comer, in a performance criminally overlooked by the Academy, absolutely sells the inner and outer turmoil of it all. Kudos to the Scott, Affleck, and Damon for having the humility to recognize where to let Holofcener and Comer take over the story and remind us how seven centuries of time can collapse and lay bare truths we’ve still yet to truly confront. 

4. The Lost Daughter – written and directed by Maggie Gyllenhaal 

For most of the film’s beginning, Gyllenhaal’s camera follows the face of Leda (a beyond exemplary Olivia Colman) as she sets up her vacation in a sleepy Italian coastal town. Leda doesn’t say much, and what she does say is largely perfunctory and evasive, meant to keep people at a safe distance. But Colman shows it all in her face: something is clearly consuming Leda, especially as she watches a young girl and her mother play, chase, and sunbathe along the beach each day. It feels like Leda is holding in a lifetime of tears. You keep expecting to find out one of her two mentioned daughters died at a young age, or something equally irreversible. 

Instead, Gyllenhaal skillfully sidles flashbacks to a younger Leda alongside the present, like a heavy boat pushed away, only to slowly drift back and bump up against her. It’s such a skillful way to show memory and the cost of our choices in a way, one that reminds me of Jean-Marc Vallée and Nick Hornsby’s adaption of Cheryl Strayed’s Wild, with dialogue and images torpedoing their way into the pain felt both past and present. It turns out no one died, but rather that Leda made a choice to pursue her dreams for a few years, childless. For her children, absence may have been as painful as death. Everything that’s come after is a desperate attempt to amend what may never be fixed. 

As the memories start to flood in in her first days at the villa, Leda goes to eat an orange in her room’s fruit tray, only to turn it over and see it’s rotted from the inside out. It’s a deft visual symbol of something clearly eating at her. Later, Gyllenhaal returns to the orange. After an entire film’s worth of Leda making decisions she doesn’t fully understand, controlled by forces and memories she feels little ownership over, she retires to the beach, orange in hand, and calls one of her now-adult daughters. It’s a chirpy conversation, one she’s going to ride as long as she’s able. As she caresses the phone with between her ear and shoulder, she peels the fruit. It’s ripe. It’s healthy. Perhaps it’s a sign Leda just needed to soften her own exterior, to forgive herself a little more often. Perhaps, instead, it’s a sign that the orange may be fresh for now, but will surely spoil later in just a few days, just like the one she found in her room the first time. We don’t know. They mystery is left in. It’s a sign of a mature, patient filmmaker in Gyllenhaal and one I’m eager to see make more films in the years to come. 

3. Jackass Forever – written by Eric Andre, Colton Dunn, Spike Jonze, Johnny Knoxville, Bam Margera, and Steve-O; directed by Jeff Tremaine 

Nearly eight years separates my younger brother and I. The difference felt surmountable when we were kids because we were, after all, a family unit. But as I graduated college and began moving beyond my comfort zone, it became more and more difficult for my brother and I to relate. We read different things. He liked playing repetitive racing video games, whereas I wanted platform adventures and variety. He loved hockey and, despite my lifetime of playing soccer, I could never understand how offsides worked in the rink.  I remember at one point getting a glimpse into our family phone plan’s data usage and seeing how my brother spent 95% of his data on social media while I spent 95% of mine on Safari, reading article after article, chasing rabbit holes until I reached the bottom of the internet. 

But one thing we truly shared is Jackass. We watched the first film together, feeling a bit scandalous without our parents around, and laughed ourselves into tears. Jackass Number Two only cemented that warm, elemental feeling of laughter further. And when Jackass 3D came around, I absolutely took a break from my twenty-something post-college ennui to join him in watching a dildo fly right towards us, daring to break the movie screen. 

I always tell people that despite the age difference between my brother and I, nobody – and I mean nobody – makes me laugh like he does. At some point it becomes a chicken and the egg thing. Does he make me laugh so hard because we broke into something deeper while watching the first Jackass movies, or did his cracking me up over the years prime me to be infected with that infectious Jackass fever? It doesn’t matter. The movies – and my brother – compel a laughter in me very few things can match. It feels, in many ways, like something sacred I never wanna lose. 

All this to say I was absolutely primed for this movie and yet found myself as deeply affected by it as any of their previous entries. The stunts are just as hilarious. The gross-out factor has been turned down a notch – they had to turn down something after the dangerous highs of the last two films – and it’s all for the better. These are simply guys who truly love each other, who don’t know how to make anyone else laugh quite as hard as they do together, age only making the truth deeper. They cannot quit each other. They don’t want to quit each other. They’ve found something deeper than church: the pure joy of laughter that comes from chasing after the most life a body can handle.  

2. The Mitchells vs the Machines – written and directed by Michael Rianda and Jeff Rowe

After the Summer of 2009 epidemic of Pixar’s Up making everyone cry within its first 10 minutes, I thought I was safe. No movie would ever shake out some tears from me that early in the game. They’d earn them in the end, maybe even in the middle. But certainly not before I’ve even had a chance to register the storyline. 

Then came along The Mitchells vs the Machines. 

Only months after my daughter’s birth, I knew my soft spots. For all the confidence I felt in myself as a parent and in creating a bond with my first child, I still felt the aching doubt that comes with knowing there is still so much ahead of you to screw up. There are arguments that may occur, words that may never be returned. I may, despite my best efforts, find her desperate to run away from home, headlong across the country, to pursue something I don’t understand. My point is: even the most confident of parents can be broken. And the first ten minutes of Mitchells is so deeply surgical in its story precision that it left me a sobbing mess. I cried tears I haven’t cried in forever, that I didn’t even know I had in me. And then we still had an hour and forty-five minutes to go. 

The highest compliment I can pay this film is that the rest of the movie never felt like a letdown, but rather a warm hug by some of the funniest, most brilliant people you know. There are so many lines tossed at you (and you’re bound to discover on repeat viewings) and just so many wonderfully personal things going on all over the screen. This is a film made by a team of people who loved what they were doing and wanted to make the best thing they possibly could. They have so much to be proud of. 

What many genre films get wrong is that they never move beyond the initial premise. They rely on the big monsters and the epic, sweeping events to carry it along. But the ones that stick with us the most begin as one recognizable movie before being interrupted by the genre as the next act kicks in. This is 100% true for Mitchells, which has a very recognizable beginning in showing a family unsure of how it will respond to a member leaving for college. The Dad doesn’t know if his relationship with his daughter will survive. The son doesn’t want his sister, his real best friend and biggest supporter, to be absent. And the mom is anxious at just what this new family chemistry will be like and just how will she absorb all the new sharp edges that come with it. Everyone is dreading the impact, but there’s no way to go but forward. I don’t know anyone who won’t recognize at least some core element of this setup. And then it’s all interrupted by a giant robot apocalypse. 

What makes Mitchells rise above all other sci-fi comedy fare is all the groundwork it lays in the initial act, drawing on the family’s conflicts to wring new laughs and pathos throughout. By the time Katie and her Dad again sing their ridiculous, too-cute song in the final act? Well, I didn’t cry as hard as the first ten minutes (those tears will take months – if not years – to replenish) but I felt it deep within my soul all the same. 

What a gift of a film. 

1. C’Mon C’Mon – written and directed by Mike Mills

There is something that feels so effortless about C’mon C’mon. You relax into its rhythm, utterly absorbed by the symphony of sound, editing, writing, and acting. It takes a seemingly mundane situation – an uncle takes care of his nephew for a few days – and makes it feel like the most important thing you’ve seen all year. There is so much wisdom woven into the tapestry of this film, there for you to feel as it wraps itself around you. I found myself deeply in awe, almost unable to move, at the seamlessness of Mills’ overlaying of dialogue over image and voice over emotion. It’s completely masterful. 

Mills’ described his goal with this film as wanting to juxtapose the intimacy of a parent giving a child a bath or putting them to bed alongside the bigger, deeper issues of the day. Johnny (a fantastic Joaquin Phoenix) and his team of kindred souls go from city to city, interviewing kids about the same age as Jesse (a stellar Woody Norman), asking them about their feelings of the future. As the film rolls, you can’t help but think about how much this country fails its own people, time and time again, leaving those without power to pick up the pieces. It’s as simple an issue as Viv (Gaby Hoffmann, incredible) trying to figure out who can possibly watch her son while she helps her husband in crisis, only for us to hear young kids talk about the many ways they don’t expect things to change or get better because the people above them don’t care enough. That Mills’ can make this all feel of one piece is a tremendous accomplishment. 

For most films, one time is enough for me. The message is received. The skill is appreciated. And then I move on. But no film brought out a desire for a repeat, over and over, like this one. I want to re-see the unbelievable acting of Gabby Hoffman and Phoenix as they reconnect over each phone call, the way the screen acts like a window into their own rooms, sitting us right beside them. I want to hear the heartfelt score – both hopeful and melancholic – as it waltzes under the interview responses of concerned youth. I want to savor every exchange between Johnny and Jesse, two lost souls connecting at the time they need each other most. 

There is a cinematography trend that’s been building for a while now where the camera favors a shallow depth of field. The actors we see are in hyper-clear focus while the background is so hazy as to almost be pixelated. Perhaps it’s the Portrait Mode effect. We’re easily impressed by this artsy visual. Perhaps its COVID filming protocols reminding us we can’t keep too many people in the background. Whatever it is, it’s everywhere. Now every film, consequently, feels shallow. They struggle to stick. So much is dependent on the shallowest of things moving in front of the screen, forgetting an entire world beyond it. That, to me, is what makes Mills’ directing and Robby Ryan’s cinematography so utterly transporting: they play with depth in a way I haven’t seen in a long time. So many shots involve characters going from the back to the front, and vice versa. They pop in and out of frame. They show us there’s an entire axis of movement we’ve been ignoring and maybe, must maybe, somewhere in that area are the truths we’ve been looking for. 

At the end, Johnny shares a recording – a glorified voice memo – with his sister, and we see her play it for Jesse. These people clearly miss each other, all the more richer from the many conversations they’ve had in the past week or so. Johnny brings up the time Jesse asked if he’d remember any of this, this wild and crazy time they’ve shared together, and how he was convinced his nephew, destined to grow and move on to bigger and more impactful things, would forget. It’s an upsetting revelation to Jesse. “So I said,” Johnny continues, “I’d remind you of everything.” I hope to have this movie in physical form sooner than later because that’s all I want: to be reminded of the power of a single film and how it can slide in deep within you, filling a vacancy you never realized you had. 

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Adam’s Top 20 of 2020

February 13, 2021 by Adam Membrey

2020 was a weird year for many things, and especially movies. As the pandemic hit, studios delayed many of their films into 2021. It would appear to make it a pretty catastrophic movie year. But guess what? Taking the big blockbuster boats out of the bathtub allows for the smaller ones to actually be seen. We collectively leaned a little harder on streaming services to fill in the blanks, allowing for a wider spectrum of cinematic voices to make their way through. This may be the most deeply empathetic list I’ve been together in all the years I’ve done this. No year taught me more, film after film, about experiences not my own while giving me universalities to connect with.

Before we get started: some awards! 

The 91% Alcohol Swab Award: Tenet

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At one point this past Christmas, I had to hunt down 91% alcohol for a project. I’m still not sure which evaporates faster: a dab of 91% alcohol or Christopher Nolan’s latest, Tenet. To be fair, there’s much to admire about this movie. There’s the typical, still very cool Nolan commitment to using as many practical effects as possible. There’s some nifty editing here and there. There are some camera tricks that, bolstered by a giant studio budget, look pretty dang cool. But that’s about it. All of it in service of a story almost entirely explained between characters and yet still not quite adding up.

While 91% alcohol is about as distilled a solution you can find in stores, Tenet is the most distilled solution of Nolan yet. Everything you love about him – the big real-world effects, the mind-bending thoughts, the suits that look suspiciously like the ones he wears to set every day – is here. But everything you hate about him – the lone, thinly written female character, the use of characters as ciphers for barely-workshopped ideas, the screaming of dialogue over loud noises because of his commitment to live sound recording – is also here, distilled in its purest, most frustrating form. I wanted so badly to figure this movie out until my disinterest increased disproportionately with the amount of time left in the movie.

There’s an inkling of a cool movie there. It’s just a 70% solution of Nolan would have worked better – a little less of his obsession, a little more water poured on the growth of his characters – and made this the event movie he truly wanted it to be. 

Best Power Flex: Black is King 

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If you look up just what this film is, the common (and rather boring) description is that it’s a visual companion to The Lion King: The Gift album Beyonce curated as part of Disney’s 2019 remake. And while this is accurate, it does absolutely nothing to give you a sense of what you’re in for. Working with directors, artists, and collaborators from all over the world, Beyonce used her clout to get Disney to invest in something they maybe didn’t fully understand. They did their best to make it an event, but the best they could do was place it on Disney+ with a few advertisements. If it weren’t for the pandemic, this would be in theaters and, rightfully, an event unto itself. 

Beyonce and her team go to great (and joyous) pains to portray Blackness as a spectrum and to reclaim Black heritage with style. They shot in Nigeria, South Africa, and Ghana and they worked closely with local artists and musicians from each of these areas. It is an 85-minute testament to the diversity of Africa – something many Americans could use more exposure to. After all, many of us here in the US still think of Africa as a country and not a continent of 54 countries with their own unique cultures. 

What I found quite astounding about this film is how it captured all the basic elements of The Lion King without ever explicitly stating them. The narrative arc and the emotional colors it brings are all here – but traced over the greater story of Africa. It would have been easy for Beyonce and her team to lean on the Disney money and make something they’re minimally involved in, using CGI backgrounds and sets. Instead, they took the opportunity to truly stretch themselves and shine a luminous light on culture so often left in American shadows. 

Best Groundhog Day Diversions: Palm Springs and The Old Guard 

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It’s fitting that both of these films came out the same day in July, as we sheltered from the summer heat and the pandemic. Perhaps Hulu and Netflix executives wanted to place a little behind-the-scenes bet on which could be a more perfect fit for Our Time of Quarantine. Palm Springs is a romantic comedy about two people stuck in a weird time loop and The Old Guard is a leaner action film about just how exhausting and devastating immortality can be. In both films, our main characters are struggling to find meaning in their predicament. In essence, they’re the perfect kind of escapist-with-a-side-of-emotion works for 2020.

Not only did both films come out on the same day, but both have Andy’s (Springs‘ Sandberg and Charlize Theron’s character) that need to learn something from those they bring up to speed so they can find their own strength to go forward. One Andy has resigned himself to a life of repeats. Another Andy is exhausted from the accumulation. They both need to believe there’s something more. 

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In a way, these Andy’s represent our zeitgeist. They are who we imagine ourselves as: people exhausted by this pandemic yet needing something to have hope in. We need to believe there’s a future worth living in, just as much as need to believe real change has occurred so the same nightmares won’t be repeated. In the end; it’s in our hands far more than we realize. It’s our mission should we choose to accept it. 

Going To See Your Favorite Person’s Play Award: The Lovebirds

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I love Issa Rae and her Insecure TV show. I love Kumail Nanjiani. I love Michael Showalter (Hello My Name Is Doris, The Big Sick) as a director. What makes this movie work is the comedic chemistry between the leads. Both Rae and Nanjiani are excellent actors in their own right, but you can see them struggling against the mechanisms of the story. Where it feels more effortless and deeply entertaining is when their legit comedic chemistry sparks to a smolder, either through comic timing or ad-libbed lines. They lean into the absurdity of each situation, still always trying to find the emotional truth behind the lines. It makes for a great Friday night escape flick, worth some chuckles and the joy of seeing two of your favorite comedic presences find new ways to bounce off each other. 

An additional fun bonus with this film: trying to figure out where Kumail was on his Marvel’s The Eternals training schedule while filming this. When I saw how director Bong Joon-ho kept hiding a too-buff-to-be-poor Captain America Chris Evans in a long trenchcoat in Snowpiercer, I realized how much fun was to be had with seeing Marvel actors and their directors try to hide all the cinematic muscle. After his Men’s Health cover came out in April 2020, which showed the word a Kumail absolutely ripped in a way we never knew possible, Slate did the investigative work for everyone.

Best Original Power Ballad: Frozen II 

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I have no problem admitting it: I was one of those moviegoers genuinely shocked by how good the first Frozen movie turned out to be and considered myself a fan. I didn’t think it was begging to be a franchise, but billions of dollars worth of merchandise will sway a studio like Disney. Nearly seven years after the original (not a good sign), Frozen II arrived on Disney+ and…I was not a fan. For many reasons. But! It made it that much easier to spot my one true highlight from that film: Kristoff’s 80’s power ballad, “Lost in the Woods”. The song along is a true banger. But the song with the lip-synching reindeer and dramatic lighting? 100% fried gold. Lock it away in the Smithsonian. This is the best thing Disney will ever do for the next fifty years.

Best Polar Express Replacement: Jingle Jangle: A Christmas Journey 

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Watching Robert Zemeckis’ The Polar Express on a large TV screen with a thundering sound system this past Christmas reminded me of its original selling point in 2004: a CGI extravaganza rendered in 3D (hence the objects randomly thrown towards the screen). Sixteen years later, the animation holds up better in some places than others, but there’s a dark, rather creepy core to the whole thing. Maybe it’s having a homeless man giggling on top of a moving train. Maybe it’s the way every adult’s face just sets up camp in the Uncanny Valley and looks increasingly grotesque as the story goes on. All of it works together to create something rather exhausting and discomforting, buoyed by some show-stopping action pieces that remind us of just how great Zemeckis was at live-action directing before he built a second living inside the computer. 

David E. Talbert’s Jingle Jangle, on the other hand, accomplishes quite a few things in a delightful package bursting with color and imagination: it introduces a much better, more empowering idea of belief, and it does it with great actors, imaginative sets, and some genuinely catchy songs. It’s a smart cotton candy delight of a Christmas classic for the whole family and with none of the creepiness or Uncanny Valley treks found in Polar Express.

Most Unlikely Reminder That Octopus Are Dope: My Octopus Teacher

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There are some unmistakable truths in life. Coke is better than Pepsi. Showerheads are cheese graters for water. Everything is improved with an Oreo in it. And octopuses are one of the most incredible, baffling, and inspiring animals on this entire planet. You know they’re special when Pixar, well known for making animals talk and bringing otherwise inanimate objects to life, spent an insane amount of time on research and development with Finding Dory because octopus arms were constantly breaking their animating brains. Or when they allow them to make World Cup soccer predictions.

There are so many ways this documentary could have sunk to the cinematic floor. The idea of a man obsessively following an octopus for a year? In this economy? But it’s a testament to Ehlrich and Reed that they sculpt such a genuine heart at the center of diver and filmmaker Craig Foster’s cephalopod friendship. The footage they’ve pulled together is astonishing in its own right, as intimate a look as we’ve ever seen at our eight-leg friends of the sea. But what makes this special is how Foster, exhausted and adrift and barely floating above a mid-life crisis, delicately explains the way this sea friend has revitalized his life. It buoys a rather sad ending, lining it with a golden hue of hope, not unlike the sunlight that snuck deep into the kelp forest Foster spent so much time in.

Best Superhero Film: Birds of Prey

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Another example of how great a superhero movie can be when you put the women in charge, Birds of Prey skillfully adopted Deadpool‘s unreliable narrator structure and ran with it, complete in stylish heels and an egg sandwich. Bonus points to Yan and Hodson for putting their newly-formed team together in a funhouse, creating one of the liveliest, most creative third act action scenes in recent memory.

Best Reminder the Human Body is 70% Water: Onward

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By the time the final emotional notes hit from this film, I was reminded our bodies are just sponges holding in all the tears Onward had yet to squeeze out of us.

Onward is a testament to how much grace you can buy from an audience when you nail the key emotional moments of your story. Not everything about this movie really works. There’s a fantasy element that doesn’t feel completely thought through, a rare miss for Pixar. There are jokes that don’t quite swish the net, awkwardly rattling around the rim. But none of this quite mattered because goddamn, did Scanlon and his team nail down their emotional tracking. No movie in 2020 reduced me to a tear-stained mess quite like this one. There was an ache in my chest all the way through, a feeling I haven’t really had since 2015’s Creed and Inside Out. Keep the kleenexes close by as Chris Pratt and Tom Holland make you believe in brothers who need each other more than they even realize.

20. Boys State – directed by Amanda McBaine and Jesse Moss

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This documentary is likely to leave you with two deeply conflicting feelings: hope in the future of American politics and utter despair at the white supremacy coursing underneath it. You’ll absolutely root for Steven Garza and his utterly genuine demeanor and for René Otero and his uphill climb to respect he rightfully deserves, and you’ll absolutely steam at just how close their experiences are to being toppled by the most rudimentary, yet insidious forms of racism and their teenage perpetrators. A fascinating thin slice of how America often plays out on the bigger stages.

19. Underwater – directed by William Eubank, written by Brian Duffield and Adam Cozad

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For all the attention (and taxes) we pay to space exploration, I’ve often felt we’d be better off using our resources towards exploring the 80% of the planet’s oceans that remain a complete unmapped, unobserved mystery. Even further, it’s been estimated we haven’t discovered more than 90% of the ocean’s species. What Underwater does so well is tap into two things at once: the unexplored ocean and the mysteries of the dark, deep Mariana Trench. And then it uses the insane water pressure of the deep in conjunction with the imploding pressure of not knowing just what the hell is going on around you. And it does it all while allowing an extremely game cast to wear some weighty, utterly cool exploration suits.

18. Get Duked! – directed and written by Ninian Doff 

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17. Extra Ordinary – directed and written by Mike Ahern and Enda Loughman

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Extra Ordinary comes from Ireland. Get Duked! comes from Scotland. They are both similar in their structure, stringing along quiet, unique characters as they go through increasingly baffling circumstances before breaking open into highly memorable, highly hilarious final acts.

Extra Ordinary is a bit like low-budget Ghostbusters in a small Irish town, with spit-out ectoplasm, unusual ghosts, and a deranged Will Forte as a fading one-hit-wonder. Get Duked! mixes hip-hop sensibilities with the Scottish Highlands – a brew I’d never imagine dreaming up – to delightful results. Just be sure to keep on the subtitles to decipher those thick, wonderful accents.

16. Beastie Boys Story – directed by Spike Jonze, written by Jonze, Adam Horovitz, and Mike D 

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I’ve got a lot of cultural blindspots – everyone does – and a big one I’ve always wanted to somehow remedy is the Beastie Boys. I never grew up around their music. But I knew that I loved every crazy, quirky video they made, especially the ones they did with Spike Jonze, a director I dearly love. So when I heard they collaborated for this filmed special/documentary? I was so there.

It’s hard to talk about your own band for and hour and a half without it sounding a bit masturbatory, but Michael (Mike D) Diamond, Adam (Ad-Rock) Horovitz, and Jonze make it absolutely work. There is an utter genuineness from the opening minutes, a tone of celebration mixed in with the humbling that comes with failure, reflection, and untimely death. I grew to appreciate just how wild it was these guys made it big in the first place, how they great to hate their own image, and then how they burnt it down and build it all back up in a way they could be proud of. The music is always a reflection of where they’re at in their lives, allowing them to let the art speak for itself. And Mike D and Ad-Rock are disarmingly charming, owning up to their mistakes (like the party atmosphere and casual misogyny of the past) and expressing their deep gratitude for Adam Yauch’s impact on their lives.

If you’re a fan, this is a welcome parkour dash down memory lane. If you’re like me, curious but never quite getting their deal, this is as good a shot to your musical veins as you’ll get. Come for the dope beats and the hilarious side stories about Mike D’s failed film career; stay for the heartfelt themes of ownership, gratitude, and fighting for the right to your own party.

Also, the best dancing robot video out there on the interwebs.

15. I’m Thinking of Ending Things – written and directed by Charlie Kaufman 

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Audiences love it when you give them 2 and 2 and then let them add it up to 4 on their own (and not just because they may be insecure about their own math skills). But I swear the math equations Charlie Kaufman gives us are time-released, meant only to be solved as soon as the credits roll. And they usually involve the Quadratic Formula or Calculus or something quite complex.

What I’m saying is that I’m Thinking of Ending Things is maybe the most Kaufmanesque movie yet in that it withholds its true meaning through your entire first viewing so that it’s lodged in your brain for weeks after. Both my wife and I found ourselves liking the film more and more with each passing day, our brains finally solving rudimentary parts of the Kaufman Equation, sending out tiny shots of endorphins. The true genius of Kaufman’s work here is the way you still are entranced and drawn into a movie you don’t fully understand. You can feel your way around it, like your tongue searching for that stubborn piece of candy at the back of your teeth. For a while, I wasn’t sure if Kaufman himself even understood his own movie. But the meandering, as witty and heartbreaking as it is, is the point. It’s an ode to memory, to a life regretfully lived, that won’t be forgotten anytime soon.

14. Uncorked – written and directed by Prentice Penny

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Another Netflix movie that got buried beneath the layers of content and the initial shock of the pandemic, Prentice Penny’s debut film is much like the wines it nerds out so deeply about: sweet, rich, and full of flavor. What’s so special about this film is how Penny takes a very universal theme – fathers and sons who struggle to understand and respect their differences – and makes it something fresh and alive with the details that surround it. Just as we salivate at the Memphis BBQ joint the father (Courtney B. Vance) runs and wants to hand off to his son (Mamoudou Athie), we marvel at all the rapid-fire, priorly-unknown details of such a foreign wine world. By the time you see Athie studying late into the night about all the different wine regions around the world, you know there’s more to wine than just your friend’s Target purchase. 

13. Soul – written and directed by Pete Docter and Kemp Powers

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I have grown to rely on Pixar emotionally devastating me. Like clockwork, I can count on one of their movies just knocking every possible tear out of me, dumping out my inner water ducts so they can get whatever blockage they have out of their system. Soul had all the ingredients to do the trick. With Pete Docter – the emotional terrorist responsible for my biggest tearjerkers outside of Coco – at the helm, I figured I should keep a tissue box handy. But the movie was over before any waterworks began. I felt a little deprived. I wanted to cry, dammit. I expected it. 

But what I appreciate about Soul is the idea that sometimes there’s the things we want to see and hear, and then there’s what we need to see and hear. There’s enough to cry about these days. We can look at the news or grieve about the family time and experiences we’ve lost to the pandemic. But I needed to hear what Soul had to say. I needed to be reminded that single-minded pursuits of things I enjoyed were very much in danger of being a path of regret. It made me think about all the illustrators, so in love with drawing, who work backbreaking 16 hour days to finish work they get severely underpaid for. Or the screenwriters who spend years writing scripts that never get made, barely getting by. More than all of this, Docter and co-writer Kemp Powers are showing us that the wider river is the one that moves at just the right pace. We gotta expand our peripheral vision. We gotta see the detail off the to side we often overlook. And we gotta remember the people around us that hold it all together. 

I could rave about so many things about this movie. The exceedingly clever and perfectly-designed score by Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross. The typically-gorgeous Pixar animation now showing off its fancy natural lighting ability. The way this movie, as with so many Pixar films, just absolutely bursts at the seams with creativity and innovation. It’s all there. It’s a Pete Docter movie, after all. You know you’re gonna get something wacky and undeniably special. But what I will take away from this most is the deeply mature and wise message at the heart of it all: to remember why any soul would be jealous of our time on this crazy planet. 

12. Dick Johnson Is Dead – directed by Kirsten Johnson, written by Johnson & Nels Bangerter

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The premise sounds like a joke gone too far: documentarian Kristen Johnson helps her father prepare for death by moving him across the country and filming all the possible ways he could die. What keeps this from reeling off-track is the utter sincerity of everyone involved. They want to give Dick a safe end of his life. But they also recognize that as soon as his memory starts slipping, he’s not the same person and never will be. Johnson’s ending is one of the deepest arguments I’ve seen about losing people and what it means to say goodbye.

Johnson’s interactions with her father are colorful and hilarious, the repartee developed between two deeply good humans, and yet she never shies away from reality. As a longtime documentarian, it may be her most difficult subject yet. And by the time you hear a priest’s final, heartbroken blowing of the trumpet, you’ll realize just how much Dick Johnson means to those around him and how everyone has to let go in their own way.

11. Possessor – written and directed by Brandon Cronenberg

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The premise is the definition of sci-fi high concept: an agent uses brain implant technology to inhabit others, driving them to assassinations at the request of high-paying clients. In essence: it’s the perfect crime. That is, unless you’re the person inhabited.

What makes this such a vital, nasty piece of film is the artful way Cronenberg imbues reality into everything. Perfect crimes never work out because the messiest possible conduits are at the helm: human beings themselves. We can see it in the way Tasya (Andrea Riseborough) frequently goes off-book for a more impulsive, far bloodier method of execution. And the film spreads its thematic wings when Colin (Christopher Abbott) realizes he’s being inhabited by Tasya and decides to fight back, a body truly at war with itself and the consciousness that keeps it alive.

Rather unexpectedly, Possessor reminded me a lot of 2014’s Wild, the way director Jean-Marc Vallée and writer Nick Hornby worked together to create a true audiovisual examination of the ever-intrusive presence of Cheryl Strayed’s memory. While Wild layered music and flashbacks over the narrative in exciting, accentuating ways, Cronenberg uses Possessor‘s visuals like he’s developing the film in his own dark magic lab, dipping and combining shots in all manners of material. The result is a phantasmagorical experience that feels as real and honest as anything that came out of 2020.

10. Da 5 Bloods – directed by Spike Lee; written by Lee & Kevin Willmott

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Hollywood has produced a great deal of Vietnam movies over the years. Many of them are quite good. But there’s a piece of it that’s been missing for 50 years: the experience and contribution of Black veterans. This is a movie that started out as a script written by white writers called The Last Tour, following white veterans who head back to Vietnam in search of a former squad leader they left behind. When the project stalled out and Spike Lee and his co-writer Kevin Willmott got their hands on it, they not only made the veterans Black, but they saw an opportunity to weave in the history Americans had long ignored. 

This is a film with so much to say. Lee packs the frame with archival footage, differing aspect ratios, and plays with elements of magical realism and memory. He has a group of great actors bringing their characters to life, Black men in various stages of life who are determined to find gold they buried in Vietnam and bring back the bones of their fallen comrade, Stormin’ Norman (Chadwick Boseman). While it was initially a decision decided by budget, Lee keeps the same actors in flashbacks with Boseman, a decision that only pays off as the film goes on. We can see how much their love is bone-deep for Norman and how much their loss has affected them. We also get to see how complex war really is, when Norman and the other four Bloods gun down Vietnamese soldiers having a simple conversation and only making the mistake of being in the wrong place at the wrong time. 

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There is a lot to process and absorb throughout this film’s 156-minute run time (though any complaining about it too much should wonder why we didn’t say the same with similarly long-running times from the likes of our highly-regarded white directors) but what Lee and Willmott so effectively illustrate is how these men are a part of the one long war of systemic racism. While they’re fighting in Vietnam, they’re already marginalized and have to listen on the radio to the protests that take place for their own rights in America. When they come back from the War, they’re still marginalized in a number of ways. That’s why the buried gold has so much promise to them. It’s a chance to tip the balances in their favor for once. To get ahead and reshape the narrative of their own lives and the generations ahead of them. And while infighting takes place over who gets what throughout the movie, it’s absolutely no mistake that the one man who threatens to blow this whole plan apart wears a wardrobe very reminiscent of our current president. 

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In a film packed with great performances, Delroy Lindo’s Paul towers over them all. It’s a character we haven’t seen before – a Black Trump supporter who’s tired of always being ignored and overlooked. The further they get into the Vietnamese jungle, the more he loses his grip on reality. It’s terrifying and enthralling at once. Lindo is the angry, confused soul at the core of the film while an outstanding Jonathan Majors as Paul’s son provides the heart, trying to keep his father tethered to some kind of reality and help him find some kind of peace.

Near the end, there’s a scene where Black Lives Matter protestors and advocates gather together at a rally. Many wondered how Lee could film something and inject it in his film so quickly. But the revelation that it was filmed more than a year before doesn’t prove Lee to be prescient – instead it proves he knows all too well that the war the 5 Bloods fought is the one still being fought today. 

9. I’m Your Woman – directed by Julia Hart; written by Hart & Jordan Horowitz

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In a pretty bleak year for humanity, this film gave me a shot of optimism. It’s a rather simple story about a housewife suddenly tasked with taking care of a baby in the middle of an unfolding criminal situation, suddenly have to fend for herself as she holds onto a new child and a bagful of ever-expanding questions. Hart and Horowitz blew me away last year with Fast Color, another movie in which we watch to see if the stronger, kinder human instincts will overcome the darker, more aggressive ones. This film leans just as much into the emotional muscle, in the quiet moments in which characters share some of their deeper fears in front of a cup of midnight coffee. From first frames to last, it’s quite the journey for Jean (Rachel Brosnahan) in which she can only watch and run for so long before she’s gotta fight back at the life being taken from her. A deceptively simple candle of a movie that burns long after its final notes. 

8. His House – written and directed by Remi Weekes

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Horror is an incredibly elastic genre. It can make room for any number of ideas and issues. It can use jump-scares or psychological terror. It can be a mad dash of jump scares or a slow-burn barnburner. In his debut film, Weekes takes two seemingly disparate issues – the trauma of the past and the desire to own one’s one home – and weaves them together in an unforgettable fashion.

When refugees Bol (Sope Dirisu) and Rial (Wunmi Mosaku) escape their warring South Sudan community, they are granted probationary asylum in a house on the edge of London. It seems like their dreams have come true. They finally get to have a home! But then they arrive, and the reality sets in: it’s the definition of delipidated. Walls are torn and ridden with cracks. Weird sounds are everywhere. Nothing really works. And the neighborhood lady and her cat won’t avert their gaze.

But there’s something far more sinister bubbling within the walls of the house, and it’s here where the elasticity of horror and Weekes’ vision crackle to life as Bol and Rial’s trauma – which they’ve tried so hard to suppress – becomes impossible to ignore.

I still think about the final moments of the film, when Bol is trying to convince British officials that he and his wife finally have their house under control. “Your ghosts follow you,” he says, “they never leave. They live with you.” And it’s the next line he delivers – which I won’t spoil here – that struck me as one of the most profound bits of wisdom I’d heard all year, wholly a piece with the terrific movie that came before it.

7. Spontaneous –  written and directed by Brian Duffield, based on the novel by Aaron Starmer

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Another deeply confident debut film, Duffield knows exactly what he wants to do with this story about high school seniors who, suddenly and without explanation, start combusting in horrifying, bloody splatters. You could say this movie is about a lot of things – about the senior year fears of the future, about the COVID pandemic, about the short-sighted view of the world we have in light of climate change and all number of other imminent disasters – but Duffield knows it only works if he gets you to believe in the characters. 

6. Sound of Metal – directed by Darius Marder; written by Darius and Abraham Marder

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About ten years ago, I looked for community. I wanted to meet other Deaf/HH in Spokane and stumbled into a monthly coffeeshop gathering in which ASL students and Deaf intermingled. It was never a particularly complementary fit, with cliques forming as soon as they entered the shop, branching off into dimly-lit corners. And while I did make some friends, what I remember the most is the friend I bailed on: a woman in her mid-to-late 50’s who had just lost her hearing. She arrived and explained to everyone her situation in slow and erratic sign – the kind you would expect from such a late, panicked learner – and was quickly dismissed. The hearing crowd could never really understand her beyond offering pity. The Deaf crowd’s impatience grew in staggered lines. She became a puzzle piece no one quite had the empathy to offer a connection with.

I thought about this woman a lot during Sound of Metal, a rather astonishing debut film from Marder. When I’ve talked with my Deaf friends about it, I go straight to the cochlear implant activation scene and how nothing sounds like we imagined, and a flicker of recognition and being seen streaks across their faces. When I tell my hearing friends and family about it, it’s an opportunity to see the other side. To let the incredible sound design build their empathy of what it may be like in Ruben’s shoes.

Sound of Metal is one of the more powerful empathy machines I’ve seen built. It forces me as a Deaf viewer to consider my own bias – both physically and culturally – towards someone like Ruben. It forces the hearing audience to sit with how a transformation would affect them. But what will last about this film the most, I hope, is Marder’s message of stillness. That no matter how much noise – external or internal – we have around us, striving to find peace and stillness within us is the most empowering pursuit of them all.

5. One Night in Miami – directed by Regina King, written by Kemp Powers a

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All I could think about after Regina King’s stunning debut is the Lester Bangs quote from Almost Famous: “The only true currency in this bankrupt world is what you share with someone else when you’re uncool.” Writer Kemp Powers skillfully adapts his own award-winning play for the screen – never leaning into the temptation to artificially inflate the possibilities of film – and King leads and guides each actor into his own astonishing performance. This is about four very public and very popular Black men who realize what they’re up against. Powers quickly sketches for us just where each man is at the beginning of the film, and it’s beautiful the way he shows how vulnerable each of their positions are. Jim Brown (Aldis Hodge) is as popular as any NFL player and yet is still not allowed past a favorite coach’s front porch. Sam Cooke (Leslie Odom Jr.) is playing for white audiences who can’t catch onto what he’s capable of. Cassius Clay (Eli Goree) is still too wide-eyed and naive to really understand what’s working against him. And Malcolm X (Kingsley Ben-Adir) ties it all together as the man with perhaps the very most to lose. 

As desperate as some of these men were to leave the quaint hotel room and party, they couldn’t help but find themselves coming back to each other. They need each other more than they realize. The way Powers and King continue to find new layers in each combination – especially between Malcolm X and Sam Cooke – is as sumptuous a cinematic feast as this Oscar year has to offer. I keep thinking about how Denzel Washington won an Oscar for his portrayal of Malcolm X and how Ben-Adir still somehow finds a completely different take on it that feels just as essential and lived-in and perfect. 

By the time the last Sam Cooke song plays, it hits you just how far these men came in one night of conversation. One night to take measure of their responsibility to themselves and their own community. One night to think about roads untraveled. One night to show us as an audience just how beautiful friendship can be between four Black men at the height of their powers. 

4. Promising Young Woman – written and directed by Emerald Fennell

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From the first frame to the last, Fennel knows exactly what she’s trying to accomplish. Not only does Promising Young Woman boast a powerful, incisive central performance from Carrie Mulligan, but Fennel makes the brilliant choice to surround her with all our favorite Nice Guy actors – Sam Richardson, Christopher Mintz-Plasse, Adam Brody, Max Greenfield, Chris Lowell, and a revelatory Bo Burnham – to challenge us the most as an audience. There are no false notes. No filler. Just one show-stopping scene after another, adding up to an ending I’m still thinking about today. 

3. In and Of Itself – written by Derek DelGaudio, directed by Frank Oz

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When I think about magic shows – either on-stage or in the middle of Austin’s 6th Street during South by Southwest – I think about the look of astonishment on the audience’s faces. It doesn’t matter if they’ve seen something like it before. There is just something about seeing it live that sends endorphins straight up the most hardened of brains. But one thing I have not seen is a magic show that’s reduced people to utter, moppable tears.

Derek DelGaudio reminds me a lot of Mike Birbiglia. Both are pasty white guys with sincere motivations in their storytelling. While Mike uses comedy to color his storytelling, Derek uses magic to bolster his. They are remixing two genres to bring their individual flavors out even more.

In the final half of In and Of Itself, I can confidently say there may not be a more powerful 30 minutes I’ve seen all year. I don’t want to give anything away, but all I could think about are the roles we use to define ourselves with – both helpful and unhelpful – and how every, EVERY person has at least one emotionally-devastating and exceedingly cathartic letter yet to be written to them. Maybe you should be the author of it. Maybe you’re waiting to be written to. Both scenarios help us define who we are. It’s an incredibly insightful conceptual trick DelGuadio pulls, one that will stick with me for the rest of my life. 

This is both the perfect film for 2020 and wins the year’s All the Feels Award. It’s hilarious and full of great lines. It’s got confident, swooping cinematography. It’s got attitude and wit. It’s got some understandably and effectively awful explosion sounds that just hang in that negative sound space, waiting for you to be comfortable before unexpectedly exploding again. It’s got a gooey sweet, yet incredibly endearing love story at the center of it. It’s a full ride that’ll give all your emotions a good workout and close it all up with a message on living we all absolutely need to hear. 

2. The Forty-Year-Old Version – written and directed by Radha Blank 

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There’s an inevitable period in every artists’ life – and it happens more than once – when it feels like time has passed you by. The moments moved on. There’s not much chance for you to hitch the train back to relevance. But the damning thing about all of it is how often it’s about perspective. When I’ve read pieces I’ve written ten years ago, I’m often a bit surprised that it’s better than I expected and yet, I look at it as if the skill disappeared out a window and didn’t leave a note. But the skill is still there. Maybe rusty, but it’s still absolutely, 100% there and colored deeply by the wisdom and experiences that have come since. 

What makes Blank’s extraordinary debut film so captivating is how it charts the embarrassment, frustrating, and imposter syndrome of feeling like a has-been while also dealing with the white gatekeeping of the artistic community she wants to break into. She’s got all these great ideas. But they have ideas for her – and they’re frequently accented with unconscious, distasteful racism. The way that Blank lays bare the constant overreach of well-meaning white people is as incisive as it’s heartbreakingly hilarious. 

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But what beats at the center of all of this is the budding hip-hop career Blank stumbles into as an outlet for all her frustrations, and the producer she befriends. They start off as such an odd match. Then you see what he sees in her and what she’s too disbelieving in herself to see in him and you can see their bruised hearts slowly circling each other. 

This isn’t just a movie about aging or putting on a play when you feel you’re past your prime. It’s about navigating that hard part after your early, exciting 20’s when everyone goes every which way and the possibilities of life are both wide-open and terrifyingly narrow. It’s about taking a chance on something wild and weird while everyone else stands aghast. It’s about believing in the message more than the clout. It’s about fighting your way through whatever your Best Self might be to see who the Honest Self is, even as you have no idea what either actually look or feel like. It’s swimming through mud. It’s waltzing, misstep after misstep, through a burning room.  The only way out, as you learn, is through. 

Blank’s choice of black and white gives everything an intimate feel throughout, as if we’re documentarians alongside her as she explores just what’s truly tripping up this life she imagines herself someday having. And when it all turns to color at the very end? It’s one of the most joyful images 2020 had to offer.

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1. The Half of It – written and directed by Alice Wu 
Alice Wu could have kept things simple. She could have made her movie a teenage version of Cyrano de Bergerac (or Roxanne, if you’re a diehard Steve Martin fan) and just left it at that. She could have coasted on the charm of her cast, collected her Netflix money, and chilled for a few years. But that would involve acting like Wu didn’t write the line that stuck like a popcorn kernel in the teeth of my brain for nearly a year: that the difference between a good painting and a great painting is just five simple strokes.

I could write quite a bit about what I think those five strokes in this movie might be, but it’s more fun to let viewers find their own. For me, I keep replaying the thermal pool scene between Ellie (Leah Lewis) and Aster (Alexxis Lemire), or the quiet, heartbreaking conversations between Ellie and her father, or the stubborn, uncomplicated puppy dog energy of Paul (Daniel Diemer), or the hilarious friction between Ellie’s spirited verbosity and Paul’s limited utterances, or even the time Paul challenges Ellie’s father about how he sees his own daughter and he responds with a heartbreaking story entirely in Mandarin, of which Paul somehow picks up nonverbally enough to understand the heart of a father’s pained message. The final stroke Wu imprints on this film may be the most daring of them all, withholding the ending we think we want for the ending that truly loves its characters and the potential of their lives. There is no film I thought about or recommended more than The Half of It. Even looking back through this movie to spot some key details, I’m stunned at how alluring it remains. This one will stick with me – and hopefully a larger audience – long after the final ticks and sputters of Netflix’s algorithm break down and whatever new form of cinematic viewing surfaces.

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